Everybody is keeping their happiness. Doing something freely and no one
judges or inhibits. No pressure from someone else. They do it happily.
Being able to reach something they want, something they should do, or
dreams that they finally achieve after a short time. In a brief point;
instantly. It's easy to be obtained, but people usually get the
consequences soon. If they are not lucky. For such aphorisms as "no pain
no gain".
Sparing rod and spoiling the child in a vast amount are not good. But
what if someone doesn't give dispensation to do something as you wish?
Imagine. You are not permitted to have fun after a long time you wash
your brain instead of getting a freakin' lecture that you're not doing
best. You can't use spare time to hang out with your friends or just go
to beach instead of increasing fat by taking a nap or too much break.
You are forbidden to refresh your mind by going to somewhere far away,
that's obviously over. And one that makes you down will be, not
permitted to have relationship before you legally enter university.
Don't tell me you're in denial.
Imagine once again. You have crush on someone and finally it's legal.
But your relatives force you to break, you finally do. You're banned to
do anything. Isn't it spooky? Walking like losers, running away like a
crippled person, or thinking like dumb. You're nauseated. You get too
much obstacle, and it laughs at you before you finally know.
I'm not strong anymore. I can't endure this feeling anymore. I have no
one to share, I don't actually want but this is occurring. I really need
a lot of new experience. Please allow me. I have much grudge and it
increases everyday, I don't know what I should do. I have tried to
divert it in a different way but it failed. I sometimes need to go to a
park, green park, to refresh my mind. And being able to shout out like
I'm standing against the ground, in front of the cave. My emotional
intelligence is bad but I try hard to change. I'm in a process of being a
new one.
I think it's like "postponing something small to get something big". I
always think about the resistance every night whereas I know it's
useless. I also try to distract though it's hard. We know how deep the
ocean but we don't know the depth of the heart. Everybody needs someone
to rely on, I always say this in my mind. To entertain myself, I'm
willing to do anything, logically. Because myself need to be spoiled,
sometimes.
