Sometimes I feel that I'm too kind to somebody. Yes, sometimes. When I'm
mad at someone, I try to handle the condition and laugh as natural as I
can. So, people wouldn't know that I'm angry. You know guys, I just
feel being too kind to you all. Smiling and laughing everyday. To
everybody I know and even I don't get acquainted.
When we hang
out and talk about something marvelous. And when you guys start talking
about something that I don't know, and I ask why you're talking about,
and you don't want me to know, I only keep silent. I know you guys need a
privacy. But this is too much. It seems like I'm the only one who's
intimidated. Sorry if I'm wrong. I'm only telling the emphasis of what I
feel everyday. Yes. Everyday.
I don't want you to understand me.
Because I know you think that I'm selfish. I'm always trying to smile
and laugh everyday in front of you. Although my heart says no and weeps.
What you all talk about are over-rated. I mean, if you want an internal
conversation, please don't talk in front of me. Even if it's still
hurting. But it's better that this.
It's 'not', that I don't keep
this friendship. When I try to, you ignore me. Cliche or not, blood
type AB has a very sensitive sense of feeling. At first, I don't believe
it. But time by time I'm living, it's true. When somebody try to hit me
up or beat me virtually, I'm still trying to ignore it. And until now,
that typical of group, the one which has many people exploded, still get
me intimidated.
Take me out to the paradise, if You think I'm ready, God.
