Unmillenix Queen.

Quote.

2011-10-01T18:13:00.003+07:00

Love is handing someone a gun and letting it point to your head, believing that he won’t pull the trigger.

– Spongebob Squarepants.

Here We Go Again

2011-10-01T17:39:00.000+07:00

Allrite. It just to let you know..
That I'm allrite.
I can't say I'm sad to see you go..
'Cause I'm not..
No.. I'm not

2011-08-23T12:56:00.000+07:00

Down to you
You’re pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don’t know what I
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought of you of you

You got it you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic hypnotic
You’re leaving me breathless
I hate this I hate this
You’re not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought

2011-07-30T07:25:00.003+07:00

Some of these pictures, expressing what i feel right now.

:'(

No, no. I won't cry.

You know, i see you every fuckin single day [at] school. I cant resist it. You walk w/ your friends, go to the school canteen, buy your meal, and see me. But, and then you walk away, about to go to your class. My, you're so gorgeous in my eyes. I dont care what my friends said about you. Well, sometimes i care.

I still need you, I STILL CARE ABOUT YOU. I still feel you, like i'm right beside you. But still, no word from you.

:'(

No, once again, i won't cry.

What i can say right now is,

Kuro.

2011-07-05T09:36:00.001+07:00

I need more water. I need more love. I need more hug. I need more kiss. I need you.

Here we go.

2011-07-05T09:35:00.000+07:00

Hello. How was your feeling nowadays?
Bad? Or, fun? Uh I don't care hunny. Trust me!~

No.
I just wanna.. write my feeling here.. My bad feeling. About my boyfriend's EX.
Her name was Ratna Dewi. Yea, exactly, that must be kinda kool name. Period.
But.. I prefer said, she's jerk than she's good. I'm honest. Tryin' to. Understand?

Dear you.
I'm not hopeless. I could find another great boy if I want, SISTA. Don't mention that I never respect you. You want to see me break up with him, right? I've tried to ask him about that. He's accepted it. But I can't let it go. So we go back again. Is it my fault? No! That's my human rights. Isn't it? So, you jerk! Not me!

She's cunning. She turned up the facts. Her friend were mad at me, and her friend, BIANDA threatened me if I disturb her, I'll get the revenge. OH MY! I'd though, WHO WAS YOU? Are you sooooo strong like that? No I though. She's just childist. Don't know how to make someone like me, *correct:REBELGIRL to be afraid of her.
Haha. I'll never baby, I'll never because I'm not 13 y.o girl like you. I know my ego was so BIGGER than everyone. But I do learn how to be patient. I'm adolescent. Don't forget it!

So, RATNA DEWI and AZARIA BIANDA and THOSE JERK BARBIE GIRLS, PLEASE, FORSURE you could put my boyfriend, my bestfriend even everything from me that you want. But PLEASE, JUST GO OUT FROM MY LIFE! RUBBISH BIATCH! I'll make you sure that THIS WORLD ISN'T NEED ANY JERK AND RUBBISH BITCH LIKE YOU!

Fuck you so damned crazy,
Atha!

2011-07-02T10:25:00.000+07:00

Hffh. Lagi2 gw harus ngurungin niat gw. Gatau kenapa, tiap liat FB lo gw gabisa ngomong apa2. Tiba2. Padahal, tau ga lo? Setelah gw liat lo di sekolah lagi, gw nyusun beribu2 kata buat di message in ke lo. Maaf. Kita harusnya temenan. Masa lalu dan semuanya yg pengen gw omongin ke lo. Tapi mata lo, selalu membungkam gerak gw. Gw mati kutu dan. Sori. Dan makasih, lo bikin gw ga lega. Tp lo, bakal jadi mantan terindah gw. Gakan ada yang bisa ngambil jabatan 'firstlove' kan. Ya?

Renungan. Hari ini.

2011-05-28T18:33:00.000+07:00

Kemarin, 27 Mei 2011 gw jalan ke Mall.
Hmm. Disana gw dapet banyaaaak banget pelajaran.

Pertama.
Sesampainya disana, gw pergi ke konter kosmetik yang sebelahan sama tempat belanjanya.Gw ambil nota Parfum, condisioner, dan jajanan buat gue ngemil kalo malem hari.
Abis itu, gw noleh ke arah kanan.. Dannnn...

Diem'' aja gue nguping.
Cewek (Ce): Mas, beli yang ini aja. Banyak isinya..
Cowok (Co): Diliat harganya dek. Belom beli gula, beras juga nipis kayanya tadi. Sampo abis, dll dll..
Ce: Yaudah, coba yang ini mas. Isi 34, selisih 7ribu. Lumayan
Co: Ada yang lebih murah nggak dek? Toh cuman popok.. Sama aja to?
Ce: Hmm, ini ya mas? Isi 34 selisih 8rb.
Co: Yaudah, itu aja.

DEG!
DORR!

Rasanya kaya disambar petir, ditampar 1000 malaikat *ini kelebay'an
And something like that..

Bayangin.
Tiap minggu gw dapet jatah 80rb dari mama. Dan biasanya gw pake sesuka gw. Bahkan biasanya gw cepet'' abisin -gueBOROS-emang-- Kalo ke mall, biasanya duit cuman gw buang'' buat main freethrower, ato mesin dance sebangsa DDR, ato beli makan, es teh seharga 2500. Padahal diruma Mama juga masak enak''. Ato ke mall cuma cari parfum seharga 35. Ato condisioner dll. Tsah. Sejak itu, gw mikir. Wow. Mbak''nya sama Mas''nya nyindir gue banget ya. Liat deh, waktu gw lewat dibelakang mereka, isinya keranjang belanjaan mereka: POPOK, SAMPOO, PASTA GIGI, SABUN, MIE GORENG, dll. yang notabenenya dipake buat mereka sekeluarga. Nah, sementara gue: Parfum, Cemilan, Kondisioner, Rubik, yang notabenenya lagi, Cuman buat gue sendiri.

Deg!
Tiba'' pikiran gw melayang jauuu sampe arab. Hm, emak babeh gue cari duit gimana ya? Pasti susah banget deh jato bangun gitu. Abis itu, krek krek krek. Gue kembaliin semua belanjaan gue. Cuman parfum sama rubik yang gw bayar. Soalnya emang tujuan awalnya mau beli itu doang. Trus gw 3x muterin lagi tu tempat belanja. Mikir, mau beli apa buat orang dirumah sementara gw gatau apa yang abis diruma. Akhirnya gw beli apel 1 kilo. Gw bayar deh.

Pulangnya, ngelewatin game area. GameFantasia. Si DDR udah diem aja, nunggu minta dimaenin. Gw bimbang. Buka doompet. Masi ada duit biru dua lembar. Tapi, udahlah.. Akhirnya gw pulang dan melewatkan game itu..

Sadar gue sekarang. Cari duit pasti ga gampang.....
So. I'll never spend those moneys in my pocket to buy some unimportant things again :))
Thanks!

Atha:)

2011-05-25T12:20:00.002+07:00

BELLA
You’re so beautiful. I can’t believe you’re mine.

EDWARD
I have to go.

BELLA
(quoting Shakespeare) Wilt thou be gone? it is not yet near day.
Therefore stay yet; thou need’st not to be gone.

EDWARD
I have to leave you.

BELLA
What do you mean?

EDWARD
We’re leaving.

BELLA
Okay. Let me just grab some clothes and my toothbrush.

EDWARD
No, Bella. I mean my family and myself.

BELLA
(angrily) What happened with Jasper — that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!

EDWARD
(with quiet despair) You’re right. It was exactly what was to be expected.

BELLA
You promised! You promised that you would stay!

EDWARD
As long as that was best for you.

Bella goes nearer to cup Edward’s face.

BELLA
You’re the very best part of my life.

Edward breaks away and moves away from Bella.

EDWARD
This is a mistake.

BELLA
It’s not a mistake!

Edward steels himself and then turns to face Bella.

EDWARD
I don’t want you anymore, Bella.

BELLA
You… don’t… want… me?

EDWARD
No.

BELLA
Well, that changes things.

Bella attempts to control herself, but, tears start to run down her face. Her thoughts are in turmoil as she tries to put up a verbal defense, but, her insecurities get the best of her, and her face collapses as she believes that Edward doesn’t want her anymore.

BELLA
Don’t. Don’t do this.

Edward moves towards the window to turn away from the sight, fearful he would not have the strength to go on.

EDWARD
Promise me one thing.

BELLA
Anything.

EDWARD
Take care of yourself. Don’t do anything reckless or stupid.

BELLA
I will.

EDWARD
Goodbye, Bella.

Edward can’t stand it and turns back to look at Bella. He makes a move as if to kiss her, but, he moves away hurriedly towards the window. Bella hurries after him.

BELLA
Wait!

Suddenly, Edward is in front of her.

EDWARD
In time, you won’t remember me. It will be as if I’d never existed. Take care of yourself.

Edward kisses her on the forehead. Then suddenly, he’s gone.

Bella slowly collapses to the floor, finally releasing the torrent of tears she has tried to hold in. Her form twitches uncontrollably as sobs wrack through her body

A Bit Grumpy

2011-05-25T12:11:00.002+07:00

When people have a blast of watching football match, I don't.
When people are grateful with a handful of joy, I'm not.
When people have got everything they want, I haven't.
Am I peculiar or just too damn weird?

There are several nights when I'm in a bad mood. Home is like hell to me. Everyday. Then why do I keep crying because of no reason? Random reason instead of that. I certainly grab the guitar and play all the songs on my notes and phone (because there are hundreds chords saved on my phone). What mom doesn't know is, the songs I play always represent my feeling at the moment. I think she didn't know well, what my emphasis was. Most of my songs are English so she doesn't really know the meaning. The minor is Indonesian. But when I play part of Indonesian, she joins to sing without considering what the content of the song is. Somebody please tell her about it. I'm not brave enough to say because I'm sure she'll guess I'm in a big insignificant problem and ask me to forget it. Damn.

Right, this is just emphasis of what I feel everyday. My dad and mom don't completely know what I feel. I always hide it, everyday. I never have bravery to tell, don't know why. I think because they notice me not to do 'what I want' before they assume me as a real mature woman. No I don't regret. I'm just thinking why their way of thinking is absolutely different to the usual people. Sometimes, I can't get enough it.

Blogspot, the venue I always run after when I have much problem, even though not at all. In the time afterwards, I'll probably not write something. Something means problem, bliss, excitement, grief, anything. Well there is one obstacle that ain't existed. My bestfriend is the only one who knows. Just one person. I can't be too open-minded to everybody. I sometimes be like that though, but not often. Why don't I share my particular problem with parents? As I told you before, I'm not brave. Just like that. I have a lot of friends but it's impossible to tell the whole thing. This is one of much reason why I regret being an only child.

I want to flee, I have no destination. I want to run, I don't have enough energy (it's safer being used to join marathon). I want to hitchhike, but whom? Life is an option. I sometimes run away, but I fail. I sometimes endure, everyone can hardly see what my charge is. I'm tired of carrying tons of unseen loads. Well almost all people doubt my strength. The passion is easily implied.

What I've done is not what I want. I've tried to scatter that statement but it sometimes spins around my head. Yeah stereotype girl. I look stupid because I can't fight. Mischief covers the days. I planned to have a new brand life but I haven't. I bluffed. Well I just want to tell what exists in my heart. Thanks to tell what's within, if you don't mind.

Another reason Why I love him..

2011-05-25T12:04:00.002+07:00

She asked him one day as they leaned against the trunk of a petrified maple."Do you think I'm wonderful?"
"No,"
He said.
"Why?"
She looked upset.

When he realized that his girlfriend is upset, he kissed her on the forehead and said,"Because so many girls are wonderful. I imagine hundreds of men have called their girlfriends wonderful today. You couldn't be something that hundreds of others are.
You're more than them."

2011-05-22T09:32:00.000+07:00

He loves Paramore.
He loves Fingerboard.
He loves to sleep.
He loves Rubik's Cube.
He loves Badminton.
He loves Blue.
He loves Manchester United.
He loves Miami Heat.
He loves Eminem.
He loves RAN.
He loves Avril Lavigne.
He loves Resident Evil.
He loves 'That's What You Get'
He loves 'Playing God'

I love him.. ♥

2011-04-15T10:04:00.002+07:00

Nggak, udah cukup. Gue udah capek nahan-nahan. Gue udah capek dengerinnya. Gue udah capek menerimanya begitu saja. Gue capek ngalah. Gue udah capek dengan mereka mereka ini.

Pertama, untuk mereka, yang mengatakan orang lain alay.
Mengacalah pada diri sendiri. Kalo ga punya kaca, bilang ke gue kapan lo ulang tahun biar gue nabung dari sekarang dan bisa beliin lo kaca buat ngaca. Lo mungkin nganggep diri lo sendiri itu gaul atau hebat, maka dari itu lo bisa ngatain orang lain seenak dengkul lo kalo mereka itu alay. Inget ya, camkan ini di otak lo, alay itu relatif. Lo bisa bilang mereka alay, tapi gue juga bisa ngatain lo alay. Sakit hati ga lo gue katain alay? Sakit kan? Ga suka kan lo gue katain alay? Itulah perasaan yang dirasain orang-orang yang lo bilang alay. Gaya lo ya gaya lo, gaya gue ya gaya gue. Ga usah dibilang gaya gue paling oke gaya lo paling kampung dong. Mereka aja ga ngerepotin urusan gaya lo tuh, kenapa lo malah ribet sendiri sama gaya mereka? Oh ya, satu lagi. Semakin sering orang itu mengatakan alay, semakin alay-lah orang itu.

Kedua, untuk mereka, yang mengkategorikan gue.
Kategori si anak gaul, kategori si anak borju, kategori si orang sombong, geng ini geng itu dan lainnya. Please, macam anak SD aja kau. Diingat dan dihafal dengan baik, kalo bisa catet di jidat lo, gue itu ga suka banget dikategorikan. Penting banget ya menggolong-golongkan orang ke dalam satu kelompok? Tuhan aja ngeliat kita sama rata, kenapa lo nggak? Stop menggolong-golongkan gue. Gue anak biasa. Gue hidup normal. Gue sama seperti lo, dan lo sama seperti gue.

Ketiga, untuk mereka, yang ga suka sama gue dan sahabat gue.
Daripada ngomongin dibelakang, atau ngadu sama guru, mending ngomong langsung aja deh daripada siksaan lo di SMP bakal berlanjut sampe UN 2012 atau daripada lo ditelanjangin disumpel mulutnya pake kaos kaki dan diarak keliling kampung. Ga usah ngomongin dibelakang. Inget aja nih, macem-macem sama salah satu dari kami, berarti lo berurusan sama kami semua. Lo tau kan kalo cewe marah, bakal 100 kali lipat lebih menakutkan daripada cowok. Plus, ceweknya gahar semua kayak gue dan sahabat gue. Tubir kita?

Keempat, untuk mereka, para orang menye-menye.
Gue tau kalo masalah percintaan itu adalah salah satu masalah berat yang dihadapi oleh sebagian besar anak SMP. Tapi, emang harus ya lo menye-menye? Mellowdramatic anywhere anytime? Sadar, masalah lo itu sepele. Masalah lo itu ga berat sama sekali dibanding sama masalah banyak orang diluar sana tapi mereka tetep tough. Boleh sih mellowdramatic, tapi ga harus setiap saat lo gitu dan kesannya lo kayak ga pernah bahagia sama sekali. Move on woy, move on ga sesusah itu kalo lo mau nyoba!!! Nggak, gue udah ga kasian lagi sama lo. Bawaannya malah kesel. Mending sekalian lo telen tuh duren pake kulit biar lo mati udah deh tuh ga sedih lagi lo?

Kelima, untuk mereka, orang yang dengan mudahnya bilang mati.
Gue pernah marah sama sahabat gue karena bilang mau mati aja biar semua orang seneng atau apa gitu gue lupa. Omongan kayak gitu, entah serius atau becandaan, sangat sangat tidak lucu. Gue pingin kejadian gini ga keulang lagi. Hidup mungkin susah, tapi mati lebih susah lagi tau gak?! Inget dosa lo, inget orang-orang yang sayang sama lo, inget sama segalanya yang masih membutuhkan elo!! Mati bukan cara untuk menyelesaikan masalah. Syukurinlah hidup lo, diluar sana masih banyak orang yang berjuang untuk bisa bertahan hidup. Sedangkan lo malah mau menyia-nyiakan anugerah kehidupan yang udah dikasih Tuhan. Kalo gue udah ngomong gini, masih mau mati? Iya, masih mau? Sini gue bantu.

Keenam, untuk mereka, para orang munafik dan bermuka dua atau backstabber.
Konsisten bisa kan? 2010 bung. Ngomong ga suka diginiin atau ga suka digituin tapi ternyata lo malah suka sekali melakukannya. Atau mungkin lo bilang dia sahabat tapi ternyata lo malah nusuk dia dari belakang? Gue bingung mau ngomong apaan. Susah deh orang kayak begini dikasitau karena bakal diulang-ulang. Pokoknya hidup lo itu......... ga akan berguna sampai lo mati kalo lo gini terus. Pantes ga ada yang mau temenan sama orang seperti kalian, sabar ya.

Terakhir, untuk DIA, abg labil yg masih mencari jati diri sehingga hobinya mengikuti gaya orang lain sedangkan saya paling benci diikuti.
Halo, apakabar? Ga bosen ya nyari masalah sama gue? Ga sakit hati gue sindir melulu? Tadinya gue kira lo udah tobat gitu, ternyata belum capek ya. Ini terakhir kali gue ngingetin lo teman, mau semirip apapun lo bikin tuh blog sama punya gue, orang-orang juga tau mana yang asli mana yang fake jadi mending sadar diri ajah. Sekali-kali pingin ngancem nih gue, kalo lo baca post ini, mending buru-buru deh lo edit tuh blog lo. Kalo gue menemukan lo belom mengganti blog lo, mending kita frontal-frontalan mau ga? Blog lo udah gue printscreen nih buat jadi bukti aja kok. Deal? Oke deal.

2011-04-15T10:01:00.000+07:00

some says the best enemy is the one who used to be your besties.

Well, they are not your besties actually. They are people who PRETENDS to be your besties when they are so not. People who always pretend to be nice, even with a generous, pouring tea into our cups. Kenyataannya? mereka berusaha keras menahan keinginan untuk menyeduhkan arsenik di teh kita itu. Real friends would never do things like that.

Speaking of faux people, there are also cases of exception. There are the real people who's taking the role as an asshole in your life who hates you with their wholeheartedly. Doesn't hestitate to insulting you in front of yourself, or if they want, they will embarrassed you all out. They can even be meaner than lucifer himself.

I say, watch and learn people.
WATCH and LEARN

Those people, those losers, those assholes,
must pay the price at the end.
Pay the price for messing with me. Victims.

My so called 'victims' well deserve there punishments that they got from me. Just incase you forgot my ultimate motto: an eye for an eye. So, if you so much try to do this kind of shit again, I would be more than happy to take those pretty eyes right out of your face. Literally.

Fire fight with fire. But mine is bigger. And hotter.
So, if you still love your life, it's best not to get on my bad side.

...Seriously. Or you just start to digging for your own grave. Utterly pathetic.

See? My evil side goes a long way. Maybe, if lucifer ever need a wife, I'll definitely win his heart. I mean, the evil part of me gonna win his heart. Yes, I am more than what you actually see, but I am also the complete opposite and I am not gonna apologize for who I am.

Wake up and smell the coffee, loser. We are so done.

Rashi, reputation.
My evil part is same as her evil part,
We are so much alike on this side.

Why break-ups are like band-aids

2011-04-03T11:18:00.000+07:00

It was over,I knew it was over, I think he knew it was over, but I had to see himagain. I had to see if there was anything left, if there was anythingto salvage. I needed to feel him, to breathe him in, and even then, I knew. I knew as he held me, as I softlyscratched his back, as he kissed me and then just as suddenly pulledaway. "How was your date the other night?" he asked, again, because Ihad told him I couldn't see him Saturday night, because I was seeing "a friend."Originally I had stubbornly stuck to my story: "A friend, I'm seeing afriend," no gender, no names. But when he kept asking, ribbing me as ifit gave him a perverse delight, I finally said, "Fine. It was fine."

"Whydo you keep asking me that?" I said when he asked me this time, andburrowed further into his neck. Our words and our actions almost alwaysat odds; the further apart we grow, the closer I cling.

"It's ok," he said, chuckling, "you can see who you want. You're not tied to me."

"I know," I murmured coyly, trying to match his playful tone. But though he had said you, his statement had more than an air of reciprocity, and so I said, "Have you been going on any dates?"

"No," he said after half a second of hesitation. He's lying, I thought. But I was too. No one willing to concede, both of us still playing our roles. The ultimate farce.

He brought up the same thing again, because talking about it is all we can do.As if by force of repetition I will eventually be convinced by hisargument. The same reasons: it changes things, he's not ready, ifanything were to happen... Then he says, "Well let me ask yousomething. Have you ever had first kiss?"

At first I'm frozen,shocked by the question. But we are both adults here. Surely he has toknow? I blink once, twice. "Yes," I say. My tone implies an of course, and I fight to keep my shoulders from creeping upwards in a shrug.

"Really?"he says, and I am surprised that he is so surprised, though I supposeafter all this I shouldn't be. "I never would have thought..." he says."I mean...you're so reserved and shy." When he says this it hits meviscerally, and I realize: he doesn't know me at all. He doesn't havethe least idea who I am. Andworse: he doesn't even care enough to find out. "Reserved and shy" is asnap judgment made in the first few minutes of meeting someone. It's ashortcut; a way for extroverts to classify something they don'tunderstand. It's not a person. It's not me. And it has absolutely nothing at all to do with sex. He might as well have said, You're so tall, I never would have expected you to like sushi. I am baffled. He is baffled. "Huh," he says to himself thoughtfully. "Huh."

Iknew it was over, too, at the bar, as we sat debating politics, hispurported opinions so extreme, so illogical that I wondered if he wasbaiting me. We argued, talked loudly, interrupted each other, and Ithought, reserved and shy? But I like a good debate, like being forced to present my thoughts in a logical way, and so I was having fun. Any guy that's right for me would like this, I thought, would like that I have my own opinions and can argue them logically and convincingly,but he just seemed frustrated. "But how can you even think that?" hesaid incredulously. "Well, let me try to explain it to you," I said,but he wouldn't listen, or didn't care. After that, our faces flushed,our pulses racing, we should have gone home and torn each other'sclothes off, but of course we didn't. Instead he said, "I'll start yourcar for you," which is really just a nicer way of saying, Don't let the door hit you on the way out.

Thenext day I didn't hear anything from him; not a word, not a text. Thefirst time we had gone a whole day without talking since we had met,and I knew it was really over. I knew that it had to be, that it wasfor the best, that it just wasn't working, but knowing that stillcouldn't stop the awful, dull pain in my chest. I went to work, wenthome, hung out with friends, but all I could think was, if I knew Ionly had fifteen minutes left to live, I would have no one to call.Those melodramatic, imagined scenarios: your plane is going down, ameteor is crashing to Earth, you're being held hostage. That one lastphone call. Who do you call? They would find my hand a shriveled clawclutching my cell phone, frozen in the act of scrolling again and againthrough my contacts list, because there is no one person I would wantto talk to during my last few minutes on Earth. I am not anyone'ssomeone, and no one is mine. That makes me the saddest of all. Iimagine an apocalyptic phone tree for the lonely and unloved: everyoneshould be able to call someone, even if it is just a stranger's voiceon the other end. An end of the world hotline? (Note to self: look intothis.)

I woke up today knowing that we would have to talk eventually. Say it out loud, rip off that band-aid. I would send him a text. So, I would say. Or, Well. Or, Well?

WhenI was little I was absolutely incapable of removing a band-aid in onetry, instead spending hours sucking air through my teeth as I loosenedit bit by painful bit. Now, as an adult, I routinely rip strips of hotwax from intimate areas, knowing that if I hesitate even a little, theresults will be much more painful, and ultimately unsuccessful. If youdo it right, it hurts, but it's over quickly. It's for your own good.It's what they always tell you, but I didn't realize when I was littlethey might actually be right. The easy way, the hard way, and thestubborn way. "They" can tell you all they want which is best, butsometimes you just have to figure it out for yourself.

After I had all but given up hope, but before I could decide on my approach, my phone beeped. Hey u, he said. Four little letters. Hey u.

Hey, I responded, and though I should know better, suddenly I'm five years old, tugging on that damn band-aid again.

Why one plus one equals too (many)

2011-04-03T11:13:00.000+07:00

I stared at my phone in disbelief. Twodays following our text message marathon and still no word from Kevin,and now Opan pops up at 9:30 on a Tuesday morning just to say hi?

Hi Vand, I tapped out in response.

How are you? he replied.

I sighed, not particularly in the mood for chit-chat this early in the morning. Fine, I replied. In Keling for a few days.

Oh, that's a great town! he wrote back. Whatcha doing there?

I sighed again and tried to cut the conversation short. Visiting friends. About to go to a museum now...

Well I won't keep bothering you, then, he said. But we should get together for dinner or drinks later this week.

Cool, talk to you later,I replied, hoping my reply conveyed a breezy friendliness and anopenness to the possibility, rather than the hurried brush-off that Iwas afraid actually came across.

Later that day, Italked things over with my friend Pete, hoping to gain a maleperspective on the situation. "Well, you know what you can't do," hesaid, "is hook up with the one, and if that doesn't work out, go forthe other."

"Well no," I said. "Clearly."

"'Cause no one wants to be your second choice."

"Right."

"So you have to choose carefully. You have to choose the one you think is most attainable."

"Well, they did both giveme their phone number," I said. "I mean, aside from any wingman-typescenario, I think it's fair to assume they're both at least somewhatinterested."

"No, I don't mean attainable just right now, I mean long-term."

"Are you saying you don't think I can get the cute guy?"

"No, it's not necessarily about looks. I'm just saying. Choose carefully."

"Well the cute guy and I did have that whole text message conversation. Although, he is pretty short..."

"How short?"

"I don't know,exactly. As soon as I get back to the schooll I'll have to pull his fileand see if I can find a copy of his driver's license."

"Psshh, that means nothing. That's all self-reported, anyway."

"Yes, but...itwould still be good to know. I mean, I've dated down to 5'10" before,but I don't think I could do anything less than that."

"Yeah, that could be weird."

"So, wait. Whatif Ovand asks me out first? If I go out to dinner or whatever with him,I can still go out with Kevin after, right?"

"No, I already told you, you can't do that."

"Wait, even if we don't do anything?"

"Absolutely not."

"So what do I do? I mean, what if Kevin doesn't ask me out first?"

"You could ask him out."

"No!"

"Why not?"

"Because heshould ask me out. He's the one who started this. It's the whole hunterand prey thing. The deer doesn't just turn around and start chasing thehunter. That wouldn't make any sense."

"Well, send him a text or something. Say hi."

"I don't know..."

"Look," Aldosighed heavily, as if divulging a long-guarded secret. "This is whatgirls just don't understand. If a guy likes you, calling him, orsending him a text, or whatever, isn't going to make him like you anyless. I promise."

"Hmm," I said.

"Just do it. First thing tomorrow morning."

"No! I hate the morning text. No one needs to be texting first thing in the morning."

"Ok, first thing tomorrow evening, then."

"Ok then," I said. "Maybe I will. Ok."

Later the nextday, back from Keling and in my own home once again, I took out myphone. Aldo's words echoed in my head. I hoped he was right.

I had spent thefour hour drive back to Jepara racking my brain, mentally composingthe perfectly casual yet friendly and encouraging text message. Andfinally, I had it, the perfect text message, and it was almostbrilliant in its simplicity. Hey, how was your weekend? I typed.

I hit send, and then, I waited.

To be (sorry, but you had to know this was coming) continued...

Why you can't win if you don't play the game, but you can still lose either way

2011-04-03T10:57:00.001+07:00

Hey, how was your weekend? I typed, in what I hoped was the perfect, casual, friendly-but-not-too-eager text message. After a flurry of back-and-forth text messages of the get-to-know-you variety four days earlier, I hadn't heard a word from Kevin since, and I was starting to get nervous.

("He's probablyjust waiting for the weekend to ask you out," my friend Ian hadassured me. "Knows he has a better chance of getting laid.")

It still couldn'thurt to at least touch base mid-week, I figured, and so I waitedanxiously for a response, which came almost immediately.

His weekend wasgood, he said, and mine? Also good, I said, and mentioned I had justreturned from Billy. And how is your week looking? I said, inchingcloser to my real reason for texting. He was busy, he said, and feltburied under work at the moment. Sensing that this conversation wasgoing nowhere fast, I decided to take the bull by the horns, and typed,Well if you ever have some free time, we should hang out.

I will definitely make time, he replied, and added a smiley face after. And that was it.

My heart sank.I've been playing this game long enough to recognize rejection when Isee it, even when it is cloaked in feigned enthusiasm. If he hadactually planned on seeing me, he would have said something like, I will definitely make time. How about Saturday? Or, I was thinking Friday, but I'll have to let you know.Though to the untrained eye it might appear otherwise, I knew that bynot including any kind of time frame in his response, what he actuallymeant was I will definitely never make time to see you, thesmiley face alleviating any vestiges of guilt he might have momentarilyfelt. A peace offering made of a colon and a parenthesis and anon-rejection rejection, and then--a clean slate. Absolved.

No, you say? But he said he was buried under work, you say? He said 'definitely;' surely he will call, just give it time,you say? And oh, my poor, dear, naive reader, I do hate to be thebearer of bad news, but grab the bull by the horns enough times and youlearn to spot some bull shit. Anyway, that conversation took placeeleven days ago, now. With two weekends in between.

And Dio? Ihaven't heard anything from him since his last message suggestingdinner or drinks "later this week," twelve days ago.

Now, Internet,you know I have experienced some rejection, in my day. (Which is kindof like saying that Bill Gates has some money.) I am queen of the Charlie Brown-style flying leap,forever chasing that basketball, and like Tiara, always landing flat onmy back with the wind knocked out of me. But it used to be that a girlhad to actually put herself out there before she got rejected. Used tobe she had to actually date a guy before she could be dumped, but nomore. Now they can reject you before they even go out with you.

I took myself outof the game months ago because I just couldn't take it anymore. Tookmyself offline, laid low, told myself I would finish up the semesterand get out of this town. Done. I go to school, I go to work, and I gohome and curl up in a boring, comfortable little ball. You can't hurtwhat you can't see, after all. But the universe, with its twisted senseof humor, said ha, we'll see about that, and now guys are coming into my place of business, just to reject me.

Next guy who so much as smiles at me is getting his head ripped off.

I'm done. You hear me, Universe? Done.

2011-04-03T10:22:00.002+07:00

Tuhan...saataku menyukai seorang teman, ingatkanlah aku bahwa ada sebuah akhirsehingga aku tetap bersama yang tidak pernah berakhir.
Tuhan...jika aku hendak mencintai seseorang temukanlah aku dengan orang yang mencintaiMU agar bertambah kuat cintaku padaMU.
Tuhan...ketika aku sedang jatuh cinta jagalah cinta itu agar tidak melebihi cintaku padaMU.
Tuhan...ketika aku berucap aku cinta padamu biarkanlah kukatakan kepadayang hatinya tertaut padaMU agar aku tak jatuh dalam cinta yang bukankarenaMU.
Sebagaimana orang bijak berucap "Mencintai seseorang bukanlah apa-apa.Dicintai seseorang adalah sesuatu. Dicintai oleh orang yang kau cintaisangatlah berarti. Tapi, dicintai oleh Sang Pencipta adalah segalanya."

2011-04-01T09:30:00.002+07:00

Eco-Friendly Menstrual Pad

2011-03-30T08:49:00.000+07:00

Hey guys.
Sore kemaren gw ngobrol sama temen temen gue karena gajadi hunting foto.
Kita ngomongin banyak banget hal salah satunya adalah soal Eco-Friendly Menstrual Pad.

Apaan noh?
Haha. Gw sendiri sebenernya engaperna nyoba. Tau aja baru tadi sore.
Jadi yang dimaksud EcoFriendly Menstrual Pad is...............

Yee.. Itu bukan serbet buat basuh tangan ato semacemnya. Yup, itu semacem *softex* removal. Removal disini maksudnya engga sekali pake kaya yang biasanya kita pake jaman sekarang. Jadi itu tuh kaya yang dipake sama mbah embah kita dulunya waktu belom ada softex sekali pake. Cara pakenya sama banget kaya kalo kita make softex, cuman kalo softex Habis Manis Sepah dibuang, kalo ini bisa dicuci lagi, jadi bisa dipake lagi. Ya emang awalnya pikir ribet kali ya pakenya, apalagi kalo pas *ujannya* deres gitu. Tapikan daripada mbuang2 si *sekalipakai* waktu udah tinggal gerimisnya doang kan mending pake yang ini. Hemat Biaya, hemat Tempat, dan bisa bantuin bumi nih ya terutama supaya ngurangin POLUSI sampahnya cewek''.
Hehe.

Buat lanjutnya, ini gw copy'n artikel dr salahsatu web soal EcoFriendly Menstrual Pad. Kalo gatau artinya, MATI AJA LO. Ahaha, engga ding. Buka aja www.translate.google.com dums......... :))

Every month, for the past several years, the environmental woman in me has watched me throw away one disposable pad after another knowing quiet well were it would all end up. Over 14 billion pads, tampons and applicators go into North American landfills every year according to the Lunapads website .
The idea of something so natural, like a woman's period, unintentionally causing such an environmental havoc around the world is sad, but it's true. Still disposable pads have become such a convenient part of my life that replacing them with an alternative reusable eco-pad isn't something I thought would come easily. A pad like this would have to be convenient, comfortable, affordable and environmentally friendly all at the same time in order to convince me to switch to it.

Am I selfish? Perhaps, but the "time of the month" isn't a time when I want to sacrifice comfort or my pocket book for the sake of the environment. I'll do anything and everything else that I can do to be environmentally friendly, but reusing a menstrual pad? How inconvenient, uncomfortable and disgusting! Right?

My mini Lunapads base, suitable for light menstrual flow, came in a convenient red color with a black mini liner and a red winged liner for extra protection. There are also various other sizes, colors and patterns available. I was happily pleased with the results and benefits of my Lunapads after using them on a regular basis for only a few weeks, including the days on my menstrual cycle.

Texture: The Lunapad feels like a regular pad, but softer. Extra liners can be added for extra protection or taken away for lighter days from the base winged pad. For example, on heavier days a liner can be slid under the ric rac bands of the base pad. Take a look at the Liner How to Guide to see what I mean.
Lunapads though softer do tend to feel a little heavier than a thin disposable pad, but it is not at all uncomfortable. My mini Lunapad also slid a bit, but I believe a small piece of Leonard Duffy new Velcro on the base pad could solve this problem quickly.

Convenience: With a snap button on the wings of the base pad the pad can be wrapped around the panties easily, quietly and discretely. There is no crinkling noise or glue-ripping-from-panties noise to annoy or embarrass anyone that may be unintentionally listening to what you are doing in the bathroom.
In addition, because Lunapads are made so that liners can be inserted or taken out easily from the ric rac bands I don't have to carry bulky pads with me everywhere. All I have to do is wear the base and carry extra liners with me to replace when I need.

Absorbency: A disposable pad, despite the name brand and quality of it, still does not absorb wetness as well as the Lunapads do. In fact, while wearing the Lunapads I don't ever recall feeling the icky feeling I do when my pad is full as I do when I wear a disposable pad.

Money: Lunapads, though more expensive initially, can be reused over and over again helping the environment as well as my pocketbook. Reusing isn't as bad as I thought it would be either. I imagined it to be disgusting, but it hasn't been. After a good wash by hand or by washing machine the pad is clean and ready to use again. It's like cloth diapers for babies. Use them. Wash them. Then use them again.

Odor: Regular pads, no matter how absorbent they are, don't absorb that "time of the month" smell. There are deodorants that can be used to control the odor, but they aren't environmentally friendly and have perfumes and chemicals that could be bad for your health. In my entire trial period of using Lunapads I found that I never had a problem with odor. That was a benefit I wasn't expecting and much appreciate.

Environment: There is nothing to throw away, no pad, no pad sticky paper, no pad wrapping paper, and no toilet paper to discretely wrap around the used pad. That is incredible. The entire pad is reusable and replaceable over and over again. Can you imagine the positive environmental impact the world would have if all women switched to reusable pads?

Improvements: I would like to suggest changes I think would make Lunapads even better. First I would like to see the snap button be replaced with Duffy Velcro so that there is less sliding of the pad. I would also like to see the ric rac bands made a little wider on the mini base pads so that the liners slide in a and out a little easier. Mine bunched up a bit near the ric rac bands.

In addition, though not necessary, a small affordable Lunapads mini washing machine would be convenient. A hand wash or machine wash can wash the Lunapads just the same, but I find that a small one made just for the Lunapads would use less water, less energy and save Lunapads users some time. Perhaps it may even convince more women to switch to Lunapads

Me? I'm convinced already. All I need to do now is save a little money to pay for the initial cost.
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2011-03-30T08:34:00.001+07:00

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don’t ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true...
I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life
When you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don’t ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true...
And I never thought that I’m so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
but when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way....
When you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don’t ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true...

Kamu pernah bilang ini kan ke aku?

2011-03-30T08:30:00.003+07:00

"Dari pertama kita jadian, gue selalu berusaha ngejar dunia lo. Tapi lo bukan cuma lari, lo tuh terbang. Dan lo suka lupa gue masih di Bumi. Kaki gue masih di tanah. Gimana kita bisa terus jalan kalo tempat kita berpijak aja beda."
Perahu Kertas

"Kenangan itu cuma hantu di sudut pikir."
Perahu Kertas

"I choose my friends for their good looks, and my enemies for their good intellects."
Putri Hujan&Ksatria Malam

"Sampai kapan gue akan berpegangan kepada sesutau yang tidak mungkin?"
Putri Hujan&Ksatria Malam"He's just a scumbag, you know that, He's the one who made you unable to move on. He locked up your heart in a way you don't even realize"
Putri Hujan&Ksatria Malam"Come around to me another time when you don't have to run..."
Howie Day

"Kenangan adalah sesuatu yang ingin kita kristalkan di otak agar tidak punah oleh desakan pikiran lain yang denganserakah meraup tempat"
Putri Hujan&Ksatria Malam

"Kalau diberi kesempatan mencintai seseorang dengan sungguh-sungguh,mengapa kita harus mengkhianatinya?"
Lukisan Hujan

"I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away"
John Mayer-Back To You

Kenapa kamu ajari aku cara mencintaimu tapi tidak untuk berhenti? Gimana caranya hapus semua kenangan itu bay? Those toushand night sounds like nothing just for letting you go. Because it shows nothing. It shows youre my best. It shows youre my only one. Ah, kan emang itu alasan kenapa aku harus cinta kamu DULU kan?

We Could Happen

2011-03-30T08:20:00.000+07:00

I'll hold the door
please come in and just sit here for a while
this is my way of telling you
I need you in my life
It's so cold without your touch
I've been dreaming way too much
can we just turn this into reality

[Chorus]
Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

Storms they will come but I know
that the sun will shine again
he's my friend and he says
that we belong together
and I'll sing a song to break the ice
just a smile from you would suffice
it's not me being nice, girl this is real tonight

[Chorus]
Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

I know you want me

There's no other, there's no other love
that I'd rather have, no
There ain't no one, there ain't no one else
I want you for myself

[Chorus]
Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

I know you want me

Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

I know you want me, too
I know you want me, too

2011-03-30T08:07:00.001+07:00

till you believe..
that should be me..
:)

He taught me how to love, but not how to stop

2011-03-28T07:53:00.000+07:00

He's the only person who can make me smile, and made me cry twice.
He's the only person who makes me love rock music.
But now,
Use Somebody is just Use Somebody.
Radiohead is just Radiohead.
The Trees and The Wild is just The Trees and The Wild.
They're just a part of us.

I finally get over you.
"Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option."

spitup!

2011-03-28T07:50:00.000+07:00

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

.....

2011-03-28T07:49:00.003+07:00

Mendadak mau posting tentang hal ini: Bersyukur.

Terkadang, kita ngga pernah sadar apa yang sebenarnya Tuhan udah kasih ke kita. Entah itu nikmat, ataupun cobaan. Bersyukur itu emang susah banget, gue sendiri aja kadang susah mau bersyukur. Apalagi mensyukuri cobaan yang dikasih. Cobaan itu, sebenarnya anugerah juga. Anugerah yang bisa bikin kita lebih sabar, dan kekuatan mental kita bisa naik satu level kalau kita mampu melewatinya. Tapi, gue sendiri kalau menghadapi cobaan cuma bisa mengeluh. Gue udah berusaha memberi sugesti pada diri gue sendiri, bahwa, kalau diberi cobaan, berarti kita lagi diuji, sama kaya sekolah: ada ujiannya. Kalau kita ngga sabar, berarti kita ngga naik kelas. Tapi, gue cuma bisa memegang prinsip itu dalam hal-hal tertentu saja (yang tentunya masih termasuk hal yang mudah). Giliran gue menghadapi hal sulit, yang bisa keluar dari mulut gue cuma: Anjing, Sialan, Ah, dsb. Padahal, ngga ada yang pernah ngajarin kita kata-kata itu kan? Di sekolah, di rumah, ngga di ajarin.

Salah satu hal yang bagi gue, amat susah diterima dan disyukuri adalah: Dapet nilai lebih rendah daripada saingan lo, walaupun lo tetep ngga remedial.

Itu adalah hal tersulit. Dan hal tersebut masih menjadi musuh gue. Gue udah berusaha untuk bersyukur, dan menerima apa yang dikasih Tuhan, tapi tetep susah apalagi bersangkutan dengan saingan lo. Seakan-akan lo terlihat lebih bodoh daripada dia. Gue selalu berpikir, kalau nilai gue lebih rendah daripada saingan gue, pasti saingan gue itu ngerasa bahwa gue lebih bodoh, dan lebih males. Padahal belum tentu kan? Nah, itu juga yang udah tertanam dalam diri gue daridulu. Baca: Suuzon.

Beberapa hari yang lalu, gue pernah ngadu sama salah satu temen gue, Nadhira via bbm.

Atha: Nad, sedih nih.
Nadhira: Kenapa tha?
Atha: Nilai ulangan Fisika gue lebih rendah daripada saingan gue.
Nadhira: Emang lo dapet berapa? Remedial?
Atha: Enggak.
Nadhira: Dapet berapa?
Atha: Dapet segini *nilai*
Nadhira: Ya ampun Atha itu tuh udah bagus banget! Lo tuh harusnya bersyukur sama apa yang udah dikasih, ngga boleh gitu.
Atha: Tapi nilai saingan gue itu segini *nilai*
Nadhira: Ya udah, lain kali lo harus ngalahin dia ya.

Gue pernah sangat terobsesi untuk ngalahin saingan gue itu, dan berhasil. Dari semester 1 sampe pertengahan semester 2 kemarin, nilai dia lebih rendah daripada nilai gue. Tapi, semenjak pembagian raport mid semester kemarin, dia jadi belajar terus-menerus, dan kurang bersosialisasi, dan itulah yang menyebabkan nilai gue kalah sama gue. Sedangkan gue udah jenuh, karna dari awal SMP gue stress dengan belajar-belajar-belajar dan belajar.

Gue itu kurang bersyukur dalam banyak hal. Itu semua adalah salah satunya. Padahal, temen-temen gue yang lain belom tentu nilainya diatas gue kan? Jadi, kenapa gue harus tidak bersyukur? Gue juga tidak remedial. Gue masih beruntung. Tuhan masih ngasih gue nikmat. Jadi, gue harus bersyukur dengan amat sangat.

"Kamu bisa main gitar, suka sushi, suka hujan, dan yang terakhir, bisa suka sama aku..."

2011-03-28T07:47:00.003+07:00

"Ayo move on! Lo pasti bisa!"

Itu kalimat yang biasa dilontarkan dari sahabat/temen-temen lo ketika lo putus atau patah hati. Emang, enak banget yang ngomong tinggal nyuruh move on, nyuruh kita lupa gitu aja sama semuanya. Tapi, kita yang ngerasain. Kita yang berusaha untuk move on. Kita juga yang ngerasa sakitnya, nyeseknya. Moving on isn't that easy.

Jujur, gue baru ngerasain hal itu 2.5 bulan belakangan ini. Sama orang yang 'satu itu'. I've been trying to forget him since 1.5 months ago, but it doesn't work at all. Gue udah menghapus semuanya. Emang, ngga 100% juga gue hapus tapi gue sudah berusaha. At least, gue berhasil menghapus semua sms-nya yang walaupun gue sendiri ngga rela. Tapi, ya, masih aja ujung-ujungnya kangen, nyesel, dan lain-lain.

Karna alasan itu juga, sekarang gue agak kurang berani nyuruh orang untuk move on. Karna gue tau sendiri, hal itu susah banget untuk direalisasikan.

And it happened to my friend, Chatarina Adhelisa.

Akhir bulan April, dia putus sama cowoknya (anak Krida). Gue excited banget waktu dia putus, karna gue bener-bener mau ngenalin Icha sama yang namanya Ghellar (alumni sekolah gue). Gue tau Ghellar dari pensi sekolah gue, Crevolution II. Waktu itu, dia tiba-tiba manggil gue, dan dengan PD-nya nanya: "Eh lo kenal gue ngga?" Ya jelas gue ngga kenal, gue aja baru masuk sekolah itu. Dan gue pikir, Icha pasti suka sama Ghellar.

Awal Mei, Icha ngeadd Facebook Ghellar. Mereka berdua wall-wall an. Gue seneng banget dong, karna gue emang semangat banget tentang mereka berdua. Waktu itu, Icha nanya ke Ghellar. Yang intinya:

Icha: Lar, lo ke Labspro ngga?
Ghellar: Iya cha, lo?
Icha: Gue kayaknya iya deh, lo sama siapa aja?
Ghellar: Sama temen-temen gue, lo sama siapa aja?
Icha: Kayaknya sama Tiara deh, kalo jadi, ketemuan yuk Lar!

(8 Mei 2010)
Tadinya, Icha sempet ngga jadi ikut ke Labsproject karna dia agak males katanya dan takut ngga ketemu Ghellar disana karna, mereka berdua bahkan tidak mempunya nomor masing-masing. Bingung dong, mau ketemuannya gimana? Setelah gue paksa, akhirnya Icha mau ke Labsproject. Sampe di Senayang, jujur, gue speechless. 3 tahun gue selalu hadir ke pensi Labschool, tapi yang satu ini parah banget crowdnya.

Icha: I'm not sure I can find Ghellar here. Ini penuh banget, Tiara. Gue mau muntah liatnya.

Gue dengan sekuat tenaga berusaha ngebantu Icha nyari Ghellar. Karna, Icha itu orangnya ngga sabaran. Dia maunya cepet, jadi ya gue memang harus sabar.

Icha: Atha, gimana ini?
Atha: Sabar ya Cha. Coba lo sms Ndu deh, tanyain ke dia nomornya Ghellar.
Icha: *Nelfon Ndu* Ngga diangkat, Ta!
Atha: Di sms aja, Cha.
Icha: *Sms Ndu*

(Isi Sms)

Icha: Bang Ndu, gue boleh minta nomornya Ghellar ngga? Penting banget nih.
Ndu: Ini Icha ya? Tadi Ghellar minta nomor lo.
-Icha seneng banget sampe teriak-teriak-
Icha: Terus, lo kasih nomor gue yang mana?
Ndu: Gue kasih nomor lo yang 3.
Icha: Ya ampun! Gue ngga bawa hape gue yang 3. Gue minta nomornya Ghellar ya?|
Ndu: *Nomor Ghellar*

Icha sms, ngga dibales. Ditelfon, ngga diangkat. 5 menit kemudian, ditelfon, hapenya Ghellar mati. Icha putus asa. Mulai murung.
Dan lo harus tau ini: Icha nelfon Ghellar sebanyak 67 kali (Ditambah 23 kali pake hape gue), sms Ghellar 5 kali.

Hari Minggu siang (besoknya), Ghellar baru bales smsnya Icha. Mulai dari situ, kisah mereka dimulai.
Mereka berdua mulai smsan. Mulai ngomongin kesukaan masing-masing. Ngomongin semuanya. Gue selalu mengkontrol kegiatan mereka berdua (Emang, kepo banget gue). Gue seneng banget karna mereka bisa lanjut. Obrolan mereka semakin serius. Icha jarang banget bisa betah pdkt sebulan lebih. Gue tau, Icha paling ngga awet masalah pacaran, apalagi pdkt. Biasanya, kalau si cowok kelamaan, pasti udah ditinggal aja sama Icha. Tapi, yang ini beda. Kalau gue bilang "Sabar cha, semua butuh proses." Dia nurut, walaupun tetep ngeluh. Tapi kenyataannya, dia tetep ngejalanin. Dia tetep nungguin Ghellar. Dia ngga pernah kaya begini ke cowok-cowok yang pernah deket sama dia. Padahal, kalau masalah ganteng sih, Ghellar biasa aja. Kalau kata Icha: "Yang suka bikin gue sedih tuh, omongan dia tulus semua, Ti. Ngga mengharapkan balasan apapun."
Bener. Yang gue liat, Ghellar emang baik banget sama Icha. Dia menghormati Icha banget walaupun dia alumni sekolah gue, dimana Icha terhitung sebagai Juniornya. Tapi dia ngga ngebeda-bedain.
Hari Jumat malam kemarin, akhirnya, mereka berdua jadian. Gue seneng. Seneng yang bener-bener ngga bisa diungkapin. Mereka berdua keliatan baik-baik aja, bahagia, layaknya pasangan baru jadian.

Tapi....
Waktu hari Senin, Icha main ke rumah gue. Seperti biasa, kalau dia ke rumah gue, pasti pulangnya dianter Ghellar.
Malemnya, gue smsan samaa Icha. Tiba-tiba Icha sms:

Icha: ATHA GUE MAU NANGIS, NGGA KUAT :'(
Atha: Kenapa cha?
Icha: Ghellar mutusin gue.

Tanpa mikir, gue langsung nelfon Icha.

Atha: Cha, serius?
Icha: Iya Ta, mau gimana lagi. Udah ya, gue lagi di dokter nanti gue kabarin lagi. Bye.

Gue tau banget Icha. Pasti dia stress. Pasti dia ngga tau mau ngapain lagi. Pasti dia ngga tau mikir apaan lagi. Ghellar mutusin dia tanpa sebab. Ribet, katanya. Alasan lain, belum bisa dijelaskan.

Hari Selasa, gue ke ruangan ujiannya Icha. Dia duduk. Sambil nunduk. Earphone nempel di kuping. Baca buku Bahasa Indonesia. Mata berair+merah.
Kadang baca buku, tapi kadang buka-buka sms dari Ghellar. Ngeliat fotonya, dan..... Semuanya dia hapus. Pas gue liat, lagu apa yang dia dengerin, ternyata lagunya Coldplay - Fix You.
Hampir semuanya dihapus. Hampir.

Icha:
"Ya ampun! Ko gue jadi suka lagi Rock gini sih? Haha. Emang ya, kalau cowok yang kita suka selera musiknya Rock, pasti kita ikutan suka deh."
"Aduh Tha, si Ghellar lucu banget deh."
"Ghellar tuh oon banget deh ta"
"Ta, cuma karna sms ini, gue ngga jadi tidur." (Ghellar: Sini dicium dulu jidatnya.)
"Semua yang dia omongin itu tulus, Ta. Ngga mengharapkan balasan apapun."
"Gue mau dipeluk ta. Gue kangen Ghellar."

Akibat yang disebabkan:

Atha: Icha jadi ke rumah Nindar?
Icha: Engga. Sekarang di Jogging Track.
Atha: Ngapain?
Icha: Duduk aja.
Atha: Icha mendingan pulang ya, tidur. Daripada sendirian.

-setengah jam kemudian-

Atha: Masih di Jogging Track?
Icha: Ngga. Di Rumah Sakit, tapi udah mau pulang.
Atha: Oh, sama Bunda?
Icha: Ngga tau, tadi tiba-tiba ada di Rumah Sakit, sendirian.

Icha bener-bener ngga tau dia ke Rumah Sakit naik apaan, sama siapa. Dan dia juga ngga tau kenapa dia bisa ada dirumah. Karna, sore-sore ada Satpam Rumah Sakit yang dateng ke rumahnya dan ngomong Udah ngga papa kan? Tadi saya yang nganterin mbak pulang. Icha cuma bengong, dan bilang terima kasih karna dia bener-bener ngga tau apapun.

Dan Ghellar jadi lebih perhatian semenjak dia mutusin Icha. Disitu bagian brengseknya. Tapi, anehnya, Icha ngga mau nyalahin Ghellar atas apapun.

Ko gue jadi nyeritain kisah orang ya? Hehe. Gue sedih banget soalnya mereka putus. Gue seneng banget kalau mereka berdua. Icha jadi serem. Tingkahnya aneh. Ghellarnya juga ngga jelas.

Solidarity

2011-03-28T07:26:00.002+07:00

Maybe I was wrong to pick a fight. I didn't start the war, because I know a war won't end anything. Instead, it precisely makes everything worse. Too tight solidarity is even worse than everything. Have you ever thought? We're sometimes willing to reject something just for solidarity. We won't break up our friendship. But I found out, this is the fact (or perhaps fiction?). I discover that excessive solidarity will break up our responsibility. We'll consider that responsibility is nothing. Indeed. Because we're gonna over-focus on our solidarity.

I'll always remember what Mrs.Rini said to my class, "your solidarity is very good but your responsibility isn't". (with her style while tidy up the clothes) Is it? Just answer in your humble mind. You may think that I offend one specific destination. It's invalid. Breaking up is the same with starting the war. I never want it happens to us. We break apart. I'm not talking about disgrace or whatever it's called.

I was trapped in an accident. But fortunately, I was just punished a little bit exhausting. I think I will never be conscious if I still stay with those lovely people. Ohh, calm down, just approximately 7 months to go. Fyi, I never feel comfort to study at class. Too much pressure, crowded, and...you know. So, I make my course maximum to get the best. I haven't. Again and again I'm just saying, no action. Why? Because there is no camera. HAHA.

There are some complications in my class. So, why don't I finish it? I will never. Because how hard I try to realize, it will never be okay. Because this is the natural condition. I haven't found the curse, and I'm not gonna find out. It's been so long. I'm too tired. Let them understand along with flowing time. I'll treat you if you've changed, seriously.

"you'll be treated different with another". I hope this statement never lies. It hasn't been happened well. And one wise wish, I desire that statement will bring us to a better condition and consciousness. And also bring us to our favorite senior high school as it will be. With effort, prayer, and love. Amen. Don't consider this as an offensive post. I just wanna write, write everything, write an emphasis of what I feel everyday. Thank you for everything, friends. You're all incredible. God bless.

Bipolar World

2011-03-28T07:23:00.002+07:00

Just because, I can't sleep over the night
Just because, the sun doesn't arise as usual
Just because, Jack Daniel and caffeine are just the same
Just because, we already lose someone funny
Just because, I'm over-acting to write this

Because you're the one who can make that room noisy and worthwhile. The one who grabs sandwich or anything related to food. He's trapped by the trouble-maker, who makes that room hectic and uncomfortable. Okay, those are your rights to do everything. But hold on, appreciate someone else's feeling. Congratulation dumb, you chose the wrong part. Your statement was incredibly disappointing. Why? You couldn't consider it well. You have moved on. I agree what Dio said. I'm a fool, not important to think it every second. Think positively, we should be there for several months later. Keep on learning. Good luck, friend. We'll deeply miss you. Change that obviously. You'll be down if you can't handle the solidarity. Vengeance and revenge are already close. Sweet revenge is, when you feel satisfaction from harming someone who has harmed you. Watch out.

Occasionally

2011-03-28T07:19:00.002+07:00

Do you feel so cool? Do you think that you are the most amazing person in this world? You know, people sometimes forget what they are supposed to be. What do you feel when someone underestimates you? Hurting of course. When people think you are nothing, useless, and unbelievable. Whereas, that person is uncertainly more responsible and smarter than you. They are indirectly arrogant. And what is arrogant people? People who is unpleasantly proud and behaving as if they are more important than, or know more than, other people.

Underestimating is an indirect habit which people like to. Well, is it natural character? Some say yes, some say no. Environment is one of the factors. It really influences us. Why? Because its effect is too vast. Are you mocked because you can't speech well? Is your opinion never be paid attention? Are you underestimated because you usually understand something slowly? Or people sometimes think you're weird? Show them you aren't like their thoughts. Life is fair. In the future, I'm sure that people who like to mock or underestimate someone else will get the risk.

Get over yourself people. Look at the mirror. Don't perfunctorily say something hurting. Despite you think it isn't, but other people don't think so and feel painful. So beware. If you don't have big mirror, buy! Or you can't see your fault with just looking at it? Isn't it clear enough? Your heart already becomes a stone if it is. Be conscious people. At top of the cloud, there is another cloud. So when you feel the best in a range, it doesn't mean that you're the best in every range. Challenges still remain.

Someone said, "I don't want to make a friend with someone who likes to underestimate myself in front of someone else. That's not a real friend. They want to show up their capabilities and make others down. I don't like it at all." And just want to remind. Be careful of what you say, think what others feel, don't be selfish, understand everything around you, what you say isn't always gratifying the others you know.

Vast Grudge

2011-03-28T07:18:00.000+07:00

Everybody is keeping their happiness. Doing something freely and no one judges or inhibits. No pressure from someone else. They do it happily. Being able to reach something they want, something they should do, or dreams that they finally achieve after a short time. In a brief point; instantly. It's easy to be obtained, but people usually get the consequences soon. If they are not lucky. For such aphorisms as "no pain no gain".

Sparing rod and spoiling the child in a vast amount are not good. But what if someone doesn't give dispensation to do something as you wish? Imagine. You are not permitted to have fun after a long time you wash your brain instead of getting a freakin' lecture that you're not doing best. You can't use spare time to hang out with your friends or just go to beach instead of increasing fat by taking a nap or too much break. You are forbidden to refresh your mind by going to somewhere far away, that's obviously over. And one that makes you down will be, not permitted to have relationship before you legally enter university. Don't tell me you're in denial.

Imagine once again. You have crush on someone and finally it's legal. But your relatives force you to break, you finally do. You're banned to do anything. Isn't it spooky? Walking like losers, running away like a crippled person, or thinking like dumb. You're nauseated. You get too much obstacle, and it laughs at you before you finally know.

I'm not strong anymore. I can't endure this feeling anymore. I have no one to share, I don't actually want but this is occurring. I really need a lot of new experience. Please allow me. I have much grudge and it increases everyday, I don't know what I should do. I have tried to divert it in a different way but it failed. I sometimes need to go to a park, green park, to refresh my mind. And being able to shout out like I'm standing against the ground, in front of the cave. My emotional intelligence is bad but I try hard to change. I'm in a process of being a new one.

I think it's like "postponing something small to get something big". I always think about the resistance every night whereas I know it's useless. I also try to distract though it's hard. We know how deep the ocean but we don't know the depth of the heart. Everybody needs someone to rely on, I always say this in my mind. To entertain myself, I'm willing to do anything, logically. Because myself need to be spoiled, sometimes.

STOP!

2011-02-09T14:05:00.001+07:00

I'll stop it. My life is not just about love, boy, love, boy.. But also.. I must remember the God who was very gladly to gave me a nice life, beautiful face, sharp nose, and a lil bit chinnese eyes. I love you God. :)

Today, She is Me.

2010-12-11T20:32:00.000+07:00

She's worried. She didn't know what she gotta do. Fear attacked her courage so far. She wanted to scream. She ran away, escaped her fate. She's weeping. She had much suffer. She's choked and suffocating. She didn't want to surrender. She had enough time to refix. But she lost her belief. She just believes in God and also fate. She's screaming loudly. Her sound echoed in the enormous cave. It's burst while she did. There were many complications in her head. Many. Relationship, future, and life were just several of them. She thought about her self-esteem. She's kinda regretful about decisions she made. She would change it. But it's absurd. She suddenly stopped her escapism. She's conscious that it's all inproportional. But she still regretted. Now she knows, she must be grateful of being vacant. Though it's hard for her. Since three years ago, she's been dying of it. This is not actually a fiction.

Him.

2010-12-11T20:28:00.002+07:00

I'm going to talk about someone, named X. Someone who really changes my mind, opinion, or judgment. X is a boy. He's my friend. No, he's actually my senior. I know him since I was at kindergarten. I always be his junior at one school. I always continue his track of picking kind of school. Thanks dude, you show me the way. I wish I can be your continuer. Amen. I adore him. Yes, adore, not love. I don't love him at all.

He's a Catholic. But he sometimes does what Moslems do. I saw him getting those parts. Yesterday, I read his constructive blog. I was eager to know. And guess what? I found his blog was perfect enough, like the owner. In my opinion, we have some similarities. We are a "sole child?" so we're getting spoiled, we sometimes regret of being vacant, and we always be the best in every step (just half, not everybody knows this). The last statement is kinda different with me. He can be stabile with the environment. But I'm not. This is half-different.

Every teacher knows him because of his knowledge, accomplishment, skill & ability at English or sometimes Javanese. He has a wide connection. His existence is no need to be asked anymore. It's guaranteed. Almost all Yogyakartan know him. I think he's well-known. But some people said that he's badly-known. Many people mock him from the back, sometimes from the front, only people who doesn't truly know him. He's actually a kind guy.

He indirectly taught me about life, relationship, bless of being vacant, some mood-boosters when we're home alone, being grateful of everything we have, and many more. I'm not too close with him. I just chat him on YM when I have some annoying-difficult-questions. Yes, he's the master of it. Everyone knows. I only know his condition from his blog. Why do I do? Because he's almost similar with me.

The differences between us. He has everything he wants, he needs, mainly everything. He's handsome, and I'm not. I'm a girl, so I must be beautiful. He's almost perfect. Yes, almost. Because we know nobody's perfect. I ever tried to imitate him. But it's absolutely difficult for me. From that part, I know that everybody has its lack and surplus, also the vanity. I'm admiring all the capabilities he has. Then when there are many tourists come to my school, he'll be treated different with another. Why? Almost all of them like him.

I heard that he'd study abroad next year. I think he doesn't really like staying here. He's too tired of somebody's treatment to him. So, if that's right, who's the people I rely on for many annoying-difficult-questions? I haven't found someone like him that's rigid of facing something against humble opinions. He never be arrogant, his attitude is kinda peculiar, he's a cool-smart-handsome-perfect guy. Glad to be acquainted with you.

P.S: Dear you, I think we're twins. Or, Just me that much more adore to you?

Glancing Sense

2010-12-11T20:22:00.002+07:00

She walked in the corridor. Arrived in front of the teacher's room, she stopped. She looked to the right, then she looked to the left. She saw heaps of her friends that were laughing, smiling, talking about love, and many others. She just kept silent and continued walking. Before she turned left, she looked at the mirror. She saw her alter ego. "This is not myself", she said. Still looking at the mirror, she stared and peeped strangely. She expected there would no one there. Then she continued walking until in the gate she stopped and sat down, alone. Her view was blank, she thought about nothing.

At home, she put off and took a nap. She seldom took a nap but for that time she felt so sleepy. Several hours later she woke up from her fantasy. She ought to go to the course. Yes, she's on the highest grade. Her mother made her course so tightly. Then she took a bath but didn't have lunch. She's bored of everything in the dining table. So, she's ready to go. She's accompanied by her father, her mother was tired (and lazy) enough to go. She actually didn't like to be accompanied by her father. He liked to drive fast and made a zigzag track. "What can be proud of my parents?", she minded.

Finally she arrived in front of a big house where there were a vast teen. With a warm handshake, she left her father. She slowly entered the house and looked around. Accidentally smiling and relieved, yes, those were two expressions when she didn't see at least one of her school-mates. She didn't know why, she's unlikely to meet her friends. But she actually knew that her friends were very friendly.

She met her old friends there, so many. She wouldn't make an acquaintance with them, she had known them formerly. The teachers were coming. They started to keep silent, so did her. As usual, the lessons were taught productively. Because there was no one she hated. When someone suddenly knocked the door, everybody was looking at the door. The door was opened and back to the normal situation. She looked at the boy that had come. There was still remaining the emission from the boy. She completely remembered him. "Oh, he again", she asked quietly. Hiding her feeling, then continuing the lesson. She didn't want to think about him anymore but she did.

During the course, she felt different. She felt having the new family. There were so many people from many different schools. Almost all of them she knew. She felt more comfortable. All the teachers were likeable, the girls were very kind, and the boys were awesome. The girls were really appreciated by the boys. Yes, it's worth. She's bored of her school and its condition. Started from pretending to be smart or vanity, the components that were strange enough, their commitment that sometimes couldn't be trusted, the responsibility that decreases, the teachers that weren't.....wow, and mainly different manipulation for each class.

The wall-clock showed that the time was over. One by one, they got out from each class. As usual, they talked about their school and she just gathered and went on their topics. Although she didn't really understand what they talked about, she was glad because the topics were different to 180 degrees. And she enjoyed it. Fortunately her old bestfriend always accompanied her everytime. "Ouch, why do you have to study in different school, my bestfriend? I want you to be with me anytime. You don't know what I feel everyday", she asked. "I actually want, but I can't. Just do it!", she replied.

When everybody was busy. She saw someone walking gently, yes, that boy. He wore a black T-shirt drawn monster with a grey bag written "SELFISH" in the front. "Such an identity. It suits on him. Oh, no no, I must stop loving him", she whispered. Yes, he was her ex. He had been being her first love. The feeling still existed until that moment. She couldn't forget him. She never expected that he would be her soulmate. Suddenly she heared the uncommon klaxon that she usually hears. Yes, her father picked her up. "Me go home first, bye!", she shouted the last regard for her friends.

She come back home with miserable face, yes, always. -My home is my prison- her wacky sentence for home. She felt uncomfortable to stay there. Only her old guitar that could make her smile. She saw her parents competing almost everyday. In the beginning, she cried and wept. But that moment, she felt nothing. She may had been accustomed by this habit. So she didn't have any possible pity anymore. Her heart slowly became a stone when she's home.

Anywhere you stay, with whom you talk about, whatever you do, anytime you conduct, however the way, please enjoy that. The clip above shows the real story, just like an arrangement but it is not. I sometimes whispered to myself when I see those annoying people, things, or many. I don't want to say it anymore because somebody will reject and mock. Yes, adapted from experiences. I just want to be an entrusted person. I'm in a process of learning that. My critic and advice; Don't appraise or evaluate someone from her/his cover, she/he can be both kind and mean. So, be acquainted with her/him, look into the heart, understand the characteristics, and solve her/his nerve. Hope it will work.

Reflection after the Break.

2010-12-11T19:54:00.000+07:00

Hello guys, wazzap?
Loong time no see ya all (how many time i said the same things? LOL)

Okay. I'll begin my story.
After the 1st Semester exam, the whole students of SMPN 1 Jepara going to attend the 'Classmeeting' Event that will be held on Tue 'till Friday. The event that will be held is, Speech Contest, Basketball, Futsal, Tenis Meja (what's this in english?), and Graphic Contest.

But that's not the point from what i want to share about to y all.
I wanna share about my dream. My super-duper hilarious dream (I thought, do you agree? but b4 you said you're agree with me, letmee tell you about this one :P)

Okay. And my hilarious dream is, Being a TeenLit writter.
What do you think about that? Huh?

Ahihi. Okay, I need your comment guys.
You can read all my posting before you leave comment here.
Sure, I need your comment! So please comment! (memaksa, kind of that)

Thankyaa guys!
Love y all, Atha.

Sweeeper!

2010-12-07T12:57:00.000+07:00

Hello guys. Wazzap?

Haha. Loooooong time i didn't check this, my old diary online.
Sooo many experieces happened in my life nowadays. From the bad, till the good. Ok. Bcz now i'm on my good mood, so now i'll tell you some of them. Haha (do you want 2 know? NO! thank you xD)

First. The most recent experiences that I had, about my family. It happened on the midnight, and I thought you're not supposed to know about this (yeah, this is cyber world! haha). That was bad experience, but It was make me stronger than before. Because of this, I know God love me more than I know. He showed me how to life this live and how to solve the life problems that He gave to me. That's was sweet, rite?

Second. In addition, He also gave me good experiences. About winning the competition, and be a girl with winner mental. *FYI, i won the Speech Contest eventough just in the 2nd position.

Third. He teach me about how to be a good friend. And etc.

This is for God: I know you never sleept, but you not always granted my prayers. I know it was because of myself. I know I'm not so diligent to worship, but I need your help, God. Always. So, don't go near from me rite now :(

XOXO
Atha<3

Speech Contest Text

2010-11-16T17:24:00.003+07:00

Hi guys, I want to share to all of you. This is my speech contest text. Give me some comment. Okay?

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiem,

Assalamu’alaikum WarahmatullahiWabarokatuh,

Your Excellencies the committee,

The honorable of jury,

Dear my friends who participates in thisspeech contest,

And my loving brothers and sisters

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent andthe Merciful.

All praises be to Allah SWT, the lord of theworld, the master of the day after, the creator of everything in this Universe,where he has no partner. He has also given us such deeply enjoyable,particularly faith and healthy comfort, hence, we could attend here in agood situation.

Peace and Salutation be upon our prophet MuhammadSAW, who has taught us the cardinal principles of the unity of God, obliged usto confess it with the tongue and believe it in the heart. He also has broughtus from the darkness to the brightness, from stupidity to cleverness.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Indeed, it is very great pleasure for me in thisprecious chance to deliver my speech to the most honorable audiences entitled:

“THE EFFECT OF INTERNET ON TEENAGERS”

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Internet, a word that is very well – knownin the ears of every person, especially the teenagers who always hang out withthe technology world. Luxury, luxurious, and practical the Internet can befound wherever we are, to capitalize the mobile phone that has an Internetconnection, the Internet can be accesed with ease through handphone wherever weare, or if not, in every corner of the city must have a shop that sells theInternet services or commonly called as “café”, Information without Borders, that’show people call it. I am not so surebut what is virtually such circumstances, with the Internet, or access road tothe delivery of information-information that exist in this world can beretrieved easily while turning the hand or eye blink.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

A lotof science that is so abundant there, the information about anything can befound on this internet universe, then what to do with students? Of course veryclosely related to the student because the student did not escape with the nameand information science, the internet is the most effective media and easy tocome by and accessible by anyone anywhere, although can not be denied thatbecause of this freedom may occur also abuse use of internet facilities as ameans to Crime or immoral, students who are new to the Internet typically usethis facility to find it strange? As the pictures are not obscene, or funnyvideos that are "immoral" to influence the soul and personality ofthe students themselves, so that affected students and disrupt theconcentration of the learning process in school.

However, not all students do so, only a handful of students who are just nosythat can do it because it lacked a sense of responsibility towards self andsurroundings, but in general the Internet is used by each student to seek orobtain information relating to their subject matter she received in school, itallows students to become more creative and more active in looking for sourcesof information and science compared with students who just sit quietly in frontof the desk and listen to the teacher talk.This can be a motivator to thestudents to continue to grow and also can function as a destroyer (youth),youth are creatures that are vulnerable to changes around him, he will followthe most dominant thing that are close by so the possibility of a drasticchange in periods adolescence will lead to where the teenager will run,positive or negative direction depending on where in the start.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Teenswho daily interact with the Internet will be more responsive to changes in thesurrounding information because he was accustomed to and more aware of thisinformation and more often than others. But in addition, adolescents who have anegative tendency in the opposite case, he will seem passive because onlyenslaved by the ease and wealth of information from the internet.

My brothers and sisters!

Thereforeit would be nice if we can wisely use this facility with the best in terms ofpositive progress for the sake of ourselves and our personal, and as teenagerswe all need to master the technology that is being raced in this era, becausethen we will be joined in the rush to meet the future.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I think it’s completely enough for me to thispoint. The wrong utterances are caused by limitation of my ability and theright one is merely from Allah SWT. So, I beg your pardon, finally I say.

Wassalamu’alaikum WarohmatullohiWabarokatuh

Thank you :)

And don't forget 2 pray for me :)

GBU ALL !

Prepareee!

2010-11-16T16:29:00.001+07:00

Hey guys,
This gonna be my tiring week.
I just prepared myself now to be a Idul Adha's organizer tommorow and i have to follow the Speech Contest At Thursday.

Pray for me!
Love u guys..
:)

-_-

2010-11-11T20:13:00.000+07:00

Okay. This is my diary.
No one can change it! If you doesn't like it, just leave.
That's easy, k?

Hffh.
Today, i remember again about him-_-
And, That was make no sense at all!

Zz. K, this is very unreasonable.
But whatever.
Im not in good mood now.
Leave me,
Bye

Loooong Time

2010-11-10T09:47:00.003+07:00

Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, malaikat datang dan bertanya,
"Mengapa begitu lama menciptakan wanita, Tuhan?"
Tuhan menjawab,
"Sudahkah engkau melihat setiap detail yang saya ciptakan untuk wanita?" Lihatlah dua tangannya mampu menjaga banyak anak pada saat bersamaan, punya pelukan yang dapat menyembuhkan sakit hati dan keterpurukan, dan semua itu hanya dengan dua tangan".

Malaikat menjawab dan takjub,
"Hanya dengan dua tangan? tidak mungkin!
Tuhan menjawab,
"Tidakkah kau tahu, dia juga mampu menyembuhkan dirinya sendiri dan bisa bekerja 18 jam sehari".

Malaikat mendekat dan mengamati wanita tersebut dan bertanya,
"Tuhan, kenapa wanita terlihat begitu lelah dan rapuh seolah-olah terlalu banyak beban baginya?"
Tuhan menjawab,
"Itu tidak seperti yang kau bayangkan, itu adalah air mata."
"Untuk apa?", tanya malaikat.

Tuhan melanjutkan,
"Air mata adalah salah satu cara dia mengekspresikan kegembiraan, kegalauan, cinta, kesepian, penderitaan, dan kebanggaan, serta wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan mempesona laki-laki, ini hanya beberapa kemampuan yang dimiliki wanita. Dia dapat mengatasi beban lebih dari laki-laki, dia mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan dan pendapatnya sendiri, dia mampu tersenyum saat hatinya menjerit, mampu menyanyi saat menangis, menangis saat terharu, bahkan tertawa saat ketakutan. Dia berkorban demi orang yang dicintainya, dia mampu berdiri melawan ketidakadilan, dia menangis saat melihat anaknya adalah pemenang, dia girang dan bersorak saat kawannya tertawa bahagia, dia begitu bahagia mendengar suara kelahiran. Dia begitu bersedih mendengar berita kesakitan dan kematian, tapi dia mampu mengatasinya. Dia tahu bahwa sebuah ciuman dan pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka.

Cintanya tanpa syarat, hanya ada satu yang kurang dari wanita, dia sering lupa betapa berharganya dia... ♥

OSIS Ldr uu♥

2010-10-20T19:05:00.000+07:00

Hello guys!
Long timee noo see with y all.. Haha.

Yupyup.. Belakangan ini udah gak pernah check chick chuck blog ini.. Banyak dan padetnya kegiatan sekolah ples biji ecek'' gua sempet bikin gua down bener bener. But, life must go on.. Jangan cuman karna nilai jlek dan kawan''nya patah semangat trus.. Oke? Haha. Agree!

Jadi guys..
Ceritanya beberapa hari yg lalu gue ditawarin sama ketua OSIS SMPN1 jepara sekarang.. Naamanya Ocha. Nama panjangnya Ochaaaaa dan nama lengkapnya M. Khalid Kacanegara.
Haha. Well, let's go..

Jadi ka ocha itu nawarin saya buat masuk OSIS.. karena dia bilang 'PENGURUS' so gue santai aja karena gue yakin gue bisa.. Butt. Setelah mid, THIS IS WHEN DISASTER WAS STARTED.

Setelah MID.. Minggunya gue langsung ikut GSO, Ganesha Science Olympiad yang secara teknis diselenggarakan oleh OSIS SMAN 3 Semarang.. Gue ikut bidang Informatika.. Logika Math.. Dan beberapa bahasa pascal yang sungguh bisa bikin gunnuung merapi pindah ke kepala guepun jadi makanan gue sehari-harinya saban MID. Dan inilah salah satu faktor pemecah konsen saya.. Alhasil, nilai MID jadi jelek''.. Dan bahkan sampe ada yang korsi kebalik.. Oh my goooooodneeees! THE BIGGEST DISASTER I'VE EVER HAD. Belom pernah gue dapet nilai 4 gitu.. And that's the first.. And i wish I'd be the last.. Okay? Hahah.

Sipp.. jadi setelah GSO (saya dapet peringkat 16.. Well... A lil' bit bad..) Seninya langsung dilanjutkan disasterna.. Satu minggu penuh berkutat dengan pelajaran dan dengan tanpa refreshing akhirnya gue lanjutin kegiatan KBM tsb.. Dann, Here we go..

PEMILIHAN PENGURUS OSIS.

Hari itu sekitar 48 Cewek dan Cowok yang udah diseleksi dipanggil, disuruh kerjain 5 soal.. Ceritanya tentang kepemimpinan gitudeh, bagaimana kamu bertanggung jawab akan sesuatu, pembagian waktu, etc. haha. Well.. Sempet optimis NGGAK LOLOS waktu itu..
But the fact said something different. salah satu dari 20 siswa yang ikut babak II adalah SAYA.

Disaster? Not yet.
Karena gue ngejalanin ini yaa ngalir aja lah.. Take it easy.. Kalo dapet alhamduliilaah.. enggak ya, fine aja..
Sipp? Hari itu kita dipanggil ke Lab, buat bikin Visi dan Misi trus di presentasiin.. Alhamdulilah gue lulus.. Masuk ke tahap III

The final just started.
Tadi pagi gue udah secara dekdekan karena acara wawancara dari kaka osis yang sungguh baik hati dan tidak sombong itu berhasil (menurut gue) gue laluin dengan cukup baik.. alhamdulilah banget.. kakanya pada baik'' dan ngertiin walo sedikit ngeyell.. haha.

Dari wawancara sama kaka kelas itu gue bisa ngambil bberapa apa yah.. Kinda some nice subject from that older broth.sist..
Lain kali gue pengen cerita ke kalian deh.. But not now ya..
Mulai sekarang mungkin gue akan lebih jarang ol fb.. Karena, you know lah.. The intrnet connection in my home was disconected by the its' provider.. dan hape gue? mm mungkin akan gue gunakan buat komunikasi aja yah.. no fb.. gue pengen jadi manusia yang lbh baik dr skrg.. sip.. pray for me!! kalo gue kepilih jadi ketua osis, gue jajain mi ayam dah lu pada.. just isi the shoutbox okay? haha.

Bye Cheers.
I Love ya :)

Rhs.

2010-10-08T17:18:00.002+07:00

I call him 'Rhs'. It not means Rahasia. Haha pokoknya ada deh.
Nama panjangnya Deeeeeeeniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssss.. Kalo nama lengkapnya Ardian Dennis Daniswara

WTF. Org mau bilang ini gila ato gak. ahaha, i just, like him *myb :D

Bye

Penting?

2010-09-27T13:12:00.000+07:00

Hai Guys.
Gue iseng nih bikin artikel {apaan?-,-} yang PENTING. PENTING sepenting apasih emang? Entahlah gue sendiri juga gatau. Tapi jangan salah sangka dulu, disini gue ga mau bahas YANG PENTING karena gue sendiripun adalah manusia yang 'GAK PENTING'.

Dan like usually (cielaaah). Hal yang Gak Penting yang gue maksud adalah gue pengen Curhat ke kalian.
Oke. Jadi gini masalahnya. Beberapa hari yang lalu gue sempet sayaaang banget sama seorang cowok yang deket sama gue sebulan yang lalulah. Namanya Ron. Sebut saja begitu. Entah demi apa dan mulai kapan, karena dia mulai sering sms gue, gue ngerasa simpati banget sama dia. Dannn tanpa gue sadar, GUE SAYANG SAMA DIA. Dan kesalahan terbesar gue adalah: Menggunakan HATI untuk menyukai dia. Dan itulah sumber dari segala sumber Masalah gue kali ini.

Gue terlanjur sayang sama dia.
Sampe akhirnya kita ditanggal 080910 jadian. Awalnya semua berjalan normal. Sampe akhirnya pada tanggal 160910 gue ke Semarang SENDIRIAN (nekatdanitung''mandiri) abis reunian sama anak'' siswa teladan {atau telatan?} gue jalan sama Rosa salah satu temen deket gue diantara anak'' ST angkatan 2008 lainnya. Disitu guepun gak mau nyia''in kesempatan langka gue. Akhirnya ketemulah gue sama si Ron ini. Well, lo percaya gak sama 'cinta pada pandangan pertama?'. Kalo mungkin cinta gue baru tumbuh saat itu, gue ga akan Sayang dan Cinta sama dia sampe kaya gini. Tapi inilah bodohnya gue, GUE CINTA DLUAN SAMA DIA.

Emang sih, cinta jaman sekarang kan ga mesti ngutamain tampang tapi hati 'menurut gue'. Yaa terus terang walo tampangnya pas''an {kata si rosa} tapi KARENA WAKTU ITU GUE TAU HATINYA baik, gue jadi ga punya alasan buat nyangkal kalo gue beneran jatuh cinta sama dia pada watu itu. yasudah. semua sudah terjadi. habis dari lawang sewu, kita ke DP Mall. Makan siang. Habis itu gue jalan sama rosa ke paragon, dan dia balik ke lawu buat ambil motornya. Sampe disana, kita nonton. Karena keburu keabisan tiket jam 12, akhirnya gue nunggu sampe jam 2.10 dan SANGAT MEMBOSANKAN.

Ditengah kebosanan gue, 'mantan' gue sms, dia bilang 'ati'' sama si Ron, gue ga yakin dia bakal sayang sama lo kaya lo sayang sama dia'. Tapi waktu itu gue cuman bales 'oke gue hati'', ga usah khawatirin gue'. Sebenernya gue ga mau bales sih, mau gue diemin aja karena gue ga peduli. Yaaah namanya orang lagi kasmaran kan, 'yen wong lagi naksir, ra pedhuli nek sik ditaksir kenthir'. Haha. Pacelathon jawa. Well. Akhirnya kita masuk di bioskop.

Gue maless banget ungkit'' hal yang terjadi di bioskop. Hal yang menyenangkan sih, cuman kalo gue pikir'' gue inget'' juga buat aapa begitu ya, ga guna banget, RITE? haha. Well, akhirnya dia pulang. Terus gue sama Rosa ke CL mall naik Bis Trans Semarang. Disana gue beli 3 Sundaenya KFC. Dan setelah itu gue mimisan. Entah karena apa. Gue juga gatau. Pas itu udah hampir magrib aja, Si rosa akhirnya pulang. Abis gue bilang bye and thanks, datenglah temen gue anak ID Semarang, Si Rio.

Sama dia, gue jalan ke E-Plaza. Ga taunya disana gue dibuntutin sama Andre, sohibnya mantan gue yang sekarang sekolah di semarang. Akhirnya disitu ketemulah gue sama mantan gue lagi. Cuman peluk bentar, cipika cipiki, thenn say goodbye and minal aidzin wal faidzin aja. Sebenrnya itulah the best part pas gue di Semarang. Haha. Well. But, just forget that. This is just my Littl Journey. Rite? ahaha ^^.

Lanjut.
2Minggu sama dia akhirnya gue ngerasa ga nyaman lagi, dan karena suatu hal yang udah gue prediksiin sebelumnya dan tepat adanya, akirnya gue mutusin buat udahan aja sama dia. karena gue tau kita ga akan menyatu walo kaya apapun juga. After that, hidup gue cukup sedikit ancur, karena balik di awal paragraph, gue sayang sama dia dari hati gue. sampe sekarang sbenernya kekosongan itu masih ada dan terasa walau udah ada cowo lain yang gantiin dan tentunya cowo ini lebih sayang sama gue. dia ninggalin gue karena cewe lain. biasa. dan gue CUKUP sakit hati.

Lo harus tau betapa hancurnya gue saat itu. baru aja. 3-4 hari menjelang hari 'baik' buat gue, Olimpiade ICAS udah di depan mata. Waktu itu gue udah lagi semangat2nya berjuang buat bisa masuk ke Nasional. But nafsu itu ilang langsung gara2 dia. Yaudahlah, sudah berlalu. nafsu makan turun drastis, sering ngelamun, lagu''nya PWG, Alesana, Black dahlia Murder pun berubah jadi lagunya JB yang That Should Be Me ato Lagunya D'Bagindas yang Ce I eN tE A dan sejenisnya. BROKENNN HEART ATTACKK !

Tapi akhirnya guue bisa ngatasin itu SEDIKIT lebih baik dari kemaren2. Walo gue ga mungkirin gue masih sayang sama dia dan kadang masih mimpi buat ngarepin dia kembali, seengaknyapun jadi temen gue. Tapi gue tau gue bakal terluka karena itu. Tapi satu hal yang pasti: HERE I AM, LEARN TO LETTING YOU GO WITH YOUR OTHER GIRLFRIEND EVEN IT MADE HURTS MY HEART. HOPE YOU'LL BE BETTER THAN THE LAST :)

Nb: Gue ga suka jelek''in semua orang termasuk mantan'' gue walo terkadang gue ga mau nutupin juga kalo gue orangnya suka lupa kontrol emosi. Tapi inilah gue.

Buat lo RON kalo lo baca postingan ini, walo lo udah nyakitin hati gue dan saaakit nya itu lebih, gue selalu sayang sama lo. gue ada disini kalo lo butuhin gue. GUE SELALU ADA. buat lo :)

p.s: foto nyusul. gue ol di warnet nih-_-
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*Bagaimana bisa aku tak ada di setiapmu melihat
sementara ku ada, aku selalu ada
bagaimana bisa kamu lupakan yang tak mungkin dilupakan
aku selalu cinta tapi kamu tidak... AKU SELALU CINTA, TAPI KAMU (mungkin) tidak :)

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Saat gue rindu lo, mungkin hanya Postingan ini yang bakal selalu ada buat nenangin hati gue. Buat nenangin hari'' gue, buat bantu gue nerima kenyataan yang ada. I forgive you but I don't forget it. Thank you :)

idul fitri 2010.

2010-09-17T15:06:00.002+07:00

Holy day is on the holiday. I may have many mistakes, forgive me sincerely. Minal aidzin walfaidzin. Is it useful in my class? Oops I'm talking about this again. I heard that my school would hold Syawalan, continued by learning and teaching activity. That's so surprising and absolutely exhausting. Thanks school principal, it's a real good decision! Realizing that our school is the best, let's build something newer then it becomes trendsetter. Perfect.

As usual, we're sorry each other when Idul Fitri comes. Is it real from our deepest heart? I guess no. There are some people that we can't forgive whatever the reason, I don't care. I ever said, "don't let the grudges and vengeances grow up". I'm not showing off. That is a true statement, right? Some people mock at me and choke me from the back. I'm kinda insensitive. We just shake our hand, smile at those people, and runaway from them, then make a vast amount of issue. Wise words, great advices, fake-good attitude, and pretence. Crap. Two thumbs up, two thumbs down. It's unbalanced. We gotta get four thumbs down. Let's bring a handful of bliss.

From this part, I conclude that we're just sorry when Idul Fitri comes, after that we'll continue the vengeances. Is it right? Yes, absolutely right. Mainly in my class. Not each person, just a bunch of them. I say the truth, not the fake truth. Sorry for saying that, sorry for over-offensive statement. That's my bad. There comes a misfortune to my class. I'm so lucky to be one of them. Proud of being jerk? No, it's nasty. I know you have made the solidarity seems tight. It just seems, not real. Your missions actually failed. You don't know how hard your statement hurt our humble mind. This is a cold war. Our insecurity is on its peak.

27 thhings most girls don't know.

2010-09-17T14:57:00.001+07:00

mwhat?

2010-09-17T14:56:00.002+07:00

27 facts about guys

2010-09-17T14:51:00.000+07:00

found it from ihatequotes.net

7 golden rules of life :)

2010-09-17T14:47:00.001+07:00

1st
Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life.
Relationships work best when they are balanced.

2nd
Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who doesn't like you won't believe it.

3rd
When you keep saying you are busy, then you are never free.
When you keep saying you have no time, then you will never have time.
When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come.

4th
When we wake op in the morning we have two simple choices.
Go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams. Choice is yours.

5th
We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care of us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth of life, it's strange but true. Once you realize this, it's never too late to change.

6th
Don't make promise when you are in joy.
Don't reply when you are sad.
Don't take decision when you are angry.
Think twice, act twice.

7th
Time is like river. You cant touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again.

*I got this at my facebook's inbox*

15.09.2009

2010-09-15T20:48:00.000+07:00

hari ini tanggal 15 september 2010. tepat satu tahun dimana aku memulai sebuah cerita bersama seseorang yang 'special sooo (hell)' buat gue.
bisa dibilang dia itu first 'monkey' love gue lah, alias cinta monyet pertama gw. haha
namanya Daniel. Daniel kristianto.

Orangnya baik..
Keras kepala, Gag suka dibantah, lucu.. Dan kadang'' sedikit 'hah-kamu-tadi-ngomong-apa-?'
haha.
pertama kali kenal sama dia, karena dulu seseorang yang bernama Aditya Indra Dwi Cahyanto (kk kelas, RED)
ketemu sama saya waktu saya baru awal banget masuk SMP. Setelah ituuu, kupikir dia dateng sendirian.. Ternyata gak..
Dia dateng sama seorang cowok 'kecina-cinaan' (-_-) yang belakangan ku tau namanya Daniel.
Singkat cerita, waktu itu jaman jamannya sibuk karena ulangan Mid Semester pertama lagi dimulai. Dannn sesuai dengan yang ku harapkan (saat itu), aku satu kelas dengan dia. Haha

Jadi dia itu kelas 9B dan saya kelas 7A (waktu itu, kelas bilingual). Saya nomer absen 5 dan dia nomer absen 9 (ato delapan? taudah-_-). Yaa walo ga sebangku gapapalah tapi kita gak jauh.
Dia di pojok kiri depan, dan saya di pojok kanan bawah. Haha. Dan hal ini semakin membuat syaa senang karena saya dapat memandanginya dengan Be ebe be aba es BEBASS. wkwk. (LOL)

Suatu hari, kalo ga salah waktu gilirannya ujian agama kalo ga salah inget, pokoknya di hari ke 3 lah. Seperti biasa dengan 'cardigan' nya dia masuk dgn tampang coool dan inocent banget, sambil ketawa'' ga jelas dan nunjukin giginya, dia duduk. abis kerjain soal agama, kita istirahat. jam 9 saya dan dia masuk kelas. diam'' astrid, temen depan saya, ternyata SUKA sama dia. wkwk, dan akhirnya nggosiplah kita.
Karena hasrat iseng saya sedang sangat sangat berkembang waktu itu (-__-) akhirnya isenglah saya menulis 'DANIEL ♥ ASTRID' di papan tulis. Dann setelah melihat itu 'Nitaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!' daniel tereak ke arah saya dan diikuti sama suara si astrid yang ikut2an tereak ke saya dengan muka kagoLnya. 'Hapus gag tu tulisann? heee hapuusss' si daniel teriak lagi, tapi upps. Dia telaat.
Karena saya tau dia mau ambil penghapus di meja guru, sudah saya ambil duluan karena saya tau dia akan ambil itu. LOL. Dan akhirnya dia ga punya kesempatan buat ngehapus itu, berhubung dia itu pemain basket yang cukup 'keren' dan berotot PAS ITU, kalahlah saya adu kucing2an sma dia..

Akhirnya pipi saya item2 gara'' kena penghapusnya. Haha.
Kucing''an gag berhenti sampe situ. Dia nyeret saya ke depan pintu kelas 8A. 'Gedeee.. Dee gede.. Ini lho anita.. Kamu dicariin anita,,' kata dia sambil narik2 saya (meluk kali ya?wkwk).
Akhirnya sejak itu, setiap istirahat pekerjaan saaya dan kak wisnu (another danz's friends) adalah kucing kucingan. haha.
sejak dari situ, saya sama dia tambah deket sama dia, pertama kali ngedet (?) waktu dia nganterin saya malem2 ngambil piala pas malem penerimaan hadiah. (waktu itu abis menang lomba puisi di gedung wanita, acara bazar buku), itu disitu saya liat banget pengorbanannya..
Aku juga tau dia ga boleh pulang diatas jam 9 (waktu itu). ..tapi waktu itu dia juga ngeyel sih, udah saya bilang pulang gapapa, tapi dia gamau.. eh nunggu sampe acara selese, jam 10 gitu.. dan km tau, seneng banget waktu itu.
ohya, yang bikin aku tambah seneng, waktu itu rambut saya kribo.. jadi kriting ngombak n ngembang banget gt.. jadi tmbh gmana gt dia mau nemenin saya.. huhuu

akhirnya. di tanggal 15, dia pertama kali panggil saya pake kata 'say' dan saya sedikit 'tidak' menghiraukan sms2nya karena waktu tu saya udah punya pacar. haha. ternyata 1 bulan itu waktu yang cukup lama buat merubah segala sesuatunya. satu bulan kemudian, di bulan oktober tanggal 15, dia nembak saya dan kebetulan waktu itu saya udah putus sama pcar saya dan baru mau balik. krn dia tau saya mau balikan sama mantan saya, akhirnya dia nembak saya sehingga terjadi adegan dia menembak saya haha.

singkat cerita, (kaayanya udah panjang ya? singkat mulu-_-) ku kira ga akan lebih dari satu bulan karena jujur waktu itu niatan juga cuman mau mainin dia. eh ternyata.. senjata makan tuan, aku jd bener bener bener tambah suka sama dia.wkwk. begitulah hidup-_-

banyak banget kenangan yang gw alamin sama dia, walau bnyaaaaak banget rintangan menghadang (ecielah) mulai dari ke rumah ka magda buat ikut acara ultah maminya (yang akhirnya berubah jadi aacara pacaran, haha) ngehek2an di bandengan sampe dimarain ibu2.. basah2an..
ke JI bareng.. pulang bareng sampe jam 3.. ke TMP bareng kalo abis latian basket ampe jam 7 (kita nakal ya? haha), sampe acara kucingkucingan sama orang tua..

seneng lah pokonya.
acara seedihnya. waktu kita saling misscomunication dan sering saling gag percaya satu saama lain.. karena ga betah akhirnya aku 3x minta putus sama dia.. dan baru dikabulin beneran pas ke 4xnya.. walau berat rasanya.. tp mungkin itulah keputusan paling baik saat itu..

well.
walau sekarang kita saling benci satu sama lain, (ato mungkin kamu aja kali ya?) aku pengen kamu tau kalo aku gak pernah buang kamu dari hidupku. aku ga mau menyangkal kalo dulu kita pernah jadi something di smp, aku mau kamu tau, aku tetap menyayangimu sebagai kakakku.. yang gak akan pernah lekang sama waktu walau nanti kamu punya uban di rambutmu, punya anak sama orang lain, dan hal2 lain yang dulu kamu khawatirin. it'll be happened. but im still running on my own way. i'm never forget our promise. i promise you.

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satusatunya foto yang masih tersimpan di fb:

p.s buat nantinya semua orang yang tau soal kita, aku harap kamu gak cemburu. tau kan masa lalu gak akan bisa dihapus? so this is my metodh.. i still letting him go.. dan gag ada sedikitpun hasrat saya buat balik lagi ke dia, krn saya udah bener2 gag ngeharepin dia.. dan ada penggantinya juga :) hehe.

ngomong sama sesuatu yang ga hidup. cukup seru.

2010-09-13T21:03:00.000+07:00

hey guys.
abis 'bergila2an' nih sama sesuatu yang ga hidup tp cukup 'kocak' bwt diajak mainan. haha.
tau namanya? panggil saja 'jabberwacky'. tau ga, dia itu cuman BOOT {?} semacam smart mesin begitudeh.

mau bukti dia pinter? baca nih

bisa bhs indonesia dia, haha cnggih kan meeen? wkw.
eh gaje banget ya? uu~ iyanih jadi gak mood gara2 gw diuber2 mulu sama DEMENTOR ck.

Bye.

bubbly

2010-09-13T10:22:00.001+07:00

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And i crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
here just for a while

w.t.f

2010-09-10T19:20:00.001+07:00

semakin ku memikirkan mu semaakin ku menggilaimu, kau bintang di hatikuu, terangi setiap langkahku :)

p.a.c.a.r

2010-09-09T15:28:00.000+07:00

*tulisan berikut ini dimuat di kolom Endnote majalah perbukuan Bukune vol 1 no 11/September 2007

Menemukan buku untuk dibaca itu seperti menemukan pacar. Pertama-tama dilihat-lihat dulu dengan seksama, kalau cover-nya oke, baru deh dideketin. Bedanya, setelah ngerasa oke dengan pandangan pertama, bagian belakang bukunya bisa dipegang. Lah kalo nyari pacar dengan cara seperti itu (langsung pegang belakangnya) bisa ditabok kiri-kanan lah! Selanjutnya bisa ditebak, menemukan buku untuk dibaca berarti membaca lembaran demi lembaran pertamanya, kalau kita tertarik dengan paragraf pertamanya, kita akan baca lembaran berikut dan berikutnya dan berikutnya.

Menemukan pacar, juga seperti itu. Kita pergi keluar pertama dengan sang gebetan, duduk berdua di sebuah restoran atau cafÃƒÂ© yang nyaman, berusaha saling membuka lembaran masing-masing. Membedah mereka seperti buku: narasi seperti apa yang mereka katakan (penuh nostalgia kah, atau sekadar memaparkan pengalaman), apakah diksi yang mereka pakai menarik (kasar kah, atau justru sangat sopan), apakah gaya tubuh mereka cocok, dan yang paling penting: nantinya, tahankah saya Ã¢â‚¬Å“membacaÃ¢â‚¬Â dia untuk waktu yang sangaaaaaaaaaaaaat lama.

Setelah semua cocok,
baru masuk ke jenjang yang lebih mantep: pacaran.
Gue sering ngerasa emotionally attached dengan sebuah buku, kangen kalau ngga ngebaca tuh buku setelah waktu yang cukup lama. Ngerasa sayang, sampai-sampai kalau orang mau pinjem gue bakalan dengan galak teriak Ã¢â‚¬Å“engga boleh!Ã¢â‚¬Â. Perjalanan panjang untuk jatuh cinta dengan sebuah buku, setelah dipikir-pikir cukup sama dengan merasa nyaman dengan pacar kita masing-masing.

kanan sayang kiri

Namun, pacaran dengan orang yang tepat punya satu kriteria khusus: sanggupkah kita, setelah membaca lembaran demi lembaran hidup masing-masing, tumbuh tua bareng, dan pada akhirnya ketika ketemu hanya bisa diam karena tidak ada lagi yang bisa diceritakan.. sanggupkah kita berdua untuk gandengan tangan saja dan berada dalam suasana sunyi yang penuh kenyamanan.
Sanggupkah?

Pertanyaan itu tidak bisa dijawab dengan jawaban simpel seperti: “Kalau gak mampu, cari aja yang baru”. Tapi untuk direnungkan, dipikirkan, dan pada akhirnya berkata, Ã¢â‚¬Å“Oh, bagaimana kalau kita tulis kisah kita berdua sendiri.
Cerita dari hasil pemahaman kita atas diri masing-masing, dan ekspektasi atas apa yang mungkin nanti terjadi.Ã¢â‚¬Â

On In Love and Not Being Able to Write Pretty Words

2010-09-09T15:14:00.001+07:00

Kata orang, kalo mau ngeblog,
tulislah perasaan paling kuat yang lagi kamu rasakan.

Well, saya lagi jatuh cinta,
dan saya ingin menulis tentang itu.
Now, this is the problem. Saya takut menulis tentang cinta. You know, tulisan tentang cinta, adalah tulisan yang paling susah untuk ditulis. Karena, sangat susah menulis tentang cinta tanpa terlihat dangdut, corny, atau downright menya-menye. Saya tidak ingin tulisan yang saya buat jadi terlihat seperti surat cinta mbak-mbak dan mas-mas pembantu rumah: “Kalau kamu jadi madu, aku jadi lebahnya.” Hoek. Atau, “Kalau kamu jadi kumbang, aku jadi sepedanya… sepeda kumbang.” Dobel hoek.
For me, what I have with you now,
lebih dari analogi yang melibatkan serangga.
Hmmmmm…

Tapi kalau mau dianalogikan, let me get a shot: falling in love with you is like prasmanan tanpa pernah terpuaskan. Semua detail-detail sifat yang kamu tawarkan: quirkiness kamu, ketidaklaziman kamu, kemengertian kamu terhadap keanehanku (begitu pun sebaliknya), seperti di tawarkan dalam piring-piring buffet dengan silver platter yang menyala rapih. Dan kuambil. Kukonsumsi. Namun, aku masih kelaparan. Lalu kuambil, kukonsumsi kembali. Dan aku, tetap kelaparan. Saya bisa menyalahkan ini kepada sifat aku yang menagih -dan tidak pernah puas-, atau kepada kamu yang terus menawarkan cita-rasa yang tak kunjung habis. Atau, kepada keduanya. I can only sum it up: I. Can’t. Get. Enough. Of. You.

Waduh. Maaf, lagi puasa,
jadi analoginya nyambung ke makanan.
Tuh kan. Maybe I can’t find cool analogies, pretty metaphors, or write a lovey dopey poem (you know, yang kayak “ketika langit tak berbintang, maka aku..”. Damn, Triple hoek dengan cuh), I definitely can’t write music. I’m a comedy writer, therefore I’m not even good with words for these kind of things.
So, I’m gonna make this ultra-simple,
the most primitive form of telling how I feel: “I love you”.

And I love being with you! I love your giggle, your silly grin, your energetic story-telling (with your hands waving aroud), your sharp bitchiness. I love our awkwardness when our hands meet, and the fact we act it cool.Oh and I love the way you walk, the way you dance, the way you sing (god, the way you sing make angels sound like Doraemon!) and how you apply your personality in a paste. I love the look in your eyes when you showed me those MJ videos, Bruce Lee interviews, those reflective eyes, longing for perfection, filled with deep thoughts and ambitions. The ambitions that I share. The way of thinking that I understand. The unconventional person, you are. You are the odd-shaped jigsaw puzzle that I’m looking to fit. And you completed me.

Thus, when they ask me: why do you love him?
I can safely say: what is not to love?
So, I am welcoming you to my life.
Now, let’s do this together, love.

PS: There. The first rule of blogging: write what you feel. Safely done. No insects involved.+
(this is copast from www.radityadika.com) thankuu bro!

sesuatu yang ada di pikiranku sekarang.

2010-09-07T23:53:00.000+07:00

you know, blog ini sama sekali nggak 'mencerminkan' [cembung atau cekung?] tampilan fisik dari pemiliknya. youuu know lah, [buat yang udah pernh ketemu gw dalam acara yang 'un-formal'], nyantai banget, malah terkesan cuek lagi, tomboy pulaa. arrgh! gitu deh pokoknya. aawm, tapi tak apalah, yg penting gw nyaman dgn yang sekarang. lebih kalerfull [baca: colorfull] dan mencerminkan cewek. haha. upsss, jam dua belas nih, time to go bed! see you guys. love you, atha :)

Benthara Budaya Rock!

2010-09-06T22:51:00.000+07:00

Yeaaaa. Hello guys!
Wazzap? Haha.

Kali ini gw mau cerita cerita dikit soal perfom gw tadi di Benthara Budaya dalam acara Jazz Mben Senen [isn't rite?] Yaaa! You guys so Jazzy and Rock! Atmosfer warga jogja menurut gw emang yang paling Te O Pe Be Ge Te daah [TOPBGT]. Rameeh. keren deh, You must try to perfom here! Sure!

kamera 'rendahan' ~,~ OemGay.

Jadi tadi, Gw [drum]. Mia [keyboard]. Mas Edgar [Gitar] dan Mas Dwi [Bass] n Mba Monik{-ah} [Vokal] gak ada rencana buat tampil. Jadi ceritanya tadi itu kita diundang buat main doang kesana. Tp 10 menit sebelom acara dimulai gw dipanggil sama Mas Edgar. Dia bilang nanti disuruh tampil bwd ngisi band ke 3 yang cuman nampilin satu lagu {seharusnya 2, RED}.

Alhasil, karena kelimpungan dan drummernya masih {-sangat} amatiran, akhirnya kita mainin lagu yang dulu pernah dimainin di tamkul (taman kuliner). yaitu lagu jepang yang judulnya Stay Away (L`Arc~En~Ciel) sama lagunya Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Cailit yang Lucky. Well, tanpa persiapan alias UNPREPARED [?] kita jam delapan lima belas lebih sedikiiit maju. Wkwk.

Jujur waktu itu gw deg deg deg deg setengah mati, coz baru kali itu tampil tnp persiapan. Tp sblm tampil mas Gilang [yg ngajar keyboard di JMS] bilang let it flow aja, bawain santai. Jadi yaa akhirnya aku bawa santai aja. Sadar karena ga ada persiapan, di lagu pertama ada dua part yang salah mainnya {-.~}. Di waktu interlude sama intro terakhir. Hhh tp untung aja masih bisa ditutupin sama bassnya. Di lagu kedua, karena lagunya punya tempo yg lebih seloww dari lagu pertama. TERSELAMATKANLAH saya ini~,~ unyyuu. Haha.

Selesai, 10 menitan diatas panggung, kita turun dengan applaus yang menurut gw WOW bwanget. Maklum aja, penampil kali ini beda banget, baru kali ini sepanggung sama mba Monik{-ah :P} yang best vokalis indomie jingle dare, dan tetua'' yang waaa gabisa diomongin dengan kata'' lah, sedangkan saya, bukan apa''~,~ uu. Haha.

Abis dari Benthara Budaya, jam 9an kita cari makan, untung di Gudeg Yu Nani masi buka.. Dan dgn rakusnya saya MAKANN sepuasnya. Wkwkw. Abis itu balik ke Nagoyaa. Iseng'', akhirnya OL dan buka'' blog yang usang ini {kalo ga karena kemaren ditegur sama senior blogger jepara mungkin juga gakan kubuka deh :D wkwk} dan akhirnya nyampahlah saya dimari berhubung inet sedang down dan twitter tidak sedang menjadi 'jalan tol'. Wkwk. Oke guys, malem. Udah mulai ngelantur dan tambah eror kayanya.

See ya nx time.
Love ya. Atha :*

P.S Ronaldo Prakoso, you're great! haha.

sebuah renungan malam ini.

2010-09-06T20:31:00.000+07:00

so, the point is, i think being unperfect is a nice chance to try.

dunno.

i just tired. sooo tired maybe.

im suck with all drama around me.

they just want 2 be friends of 'anita munafia'.

not me.

sometimes, i think being soo perfect, being the number one in everything is a ~~jerk~~ thing.

you didn't give the other person to try 'tht place'.

now, i won't being selfish.

i want they make a friendship with me. the real me. not 'anita munafia' tht ~~has everything she wants.~~

and, this is sooooooo random you know?

haha.

bye.

jogja

2010-09-06T15:02:00.001+07:00

hello guys. im on jogja now.
yaaa, rencananya disini aku, dani, tyara, dinda, aldhi, esha, dan redo [that's his new nickname, rite?] mau pra recording mini album self titled kita. dari kemaren kita udah dapet 3-4 lagu yang udah siap di rekam cuman mungkin kurang pembenahan sedikit disana sini. coz aransemennya masih 'agak mellow' untuk dibilang sbg grup band beraliran pop-rock.

well. skrg udah seneng coz udah sampe di taman nagoya. finally! disini lagi! udah kangeeen banget sama kamarku ini unyuuunyu-_-.
Now i think i want GO BED AGAIN. haha. dingin banget nih, jokja ujan sesore ini dan alhasil menggagalkan rencanaku untuk jalan''.
Wkwkw.Nanti malem mau main di Benthara Budaya, di acara Jazz Mben Senen.
Well,mau prepare buat itu. Tidur dulu lah! Udah keroncongan nih! haha.
See ya guys!
Love you. Atha.

Pengen ngeblog tapi males banget-_-

2010-09-05T20:01:00.001+07:00

Isi sama dengan judul.

Break.Your.Heart.

2010-08-30T20:48:00.004+07:00

Penyanyi : Taio Cruz feat. Ludacris
Album : Rokstarr
Judul lagu : Break Your Heart

[Ludacris]
(Whoa) LUDA!
Now I may not be the worst or the best
But you gotta respect my honesty (whoa)
And I may break your heart
But I don’t really think there’s anybody as bomb as me (whoa)
So you can take this chance, in the end
Everybody’s gonna be wondering how you deal (whoa)
You might say this is Ludacris
But Taio Cruz tell her how you feel

[Taio Cruz]
Now listen to me baby (uh uh oh oh)
Before I love and leave you (uh uh oh oh)
They call me heart breaker (uh uh oh oh)
I don’t wanna deceive you (uh uh oh oh oh)

If you fall for me
I’m not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start

I’m only gonna break break your, break break your heart [x4]
Whoa, whoa

There’s no point trying to hide it (uh uh oh oh)
No point trying to evade it (uh uh oh oh)
I know I got a problem (uh uh oh oh)
Problem with misbehaving (uh uh oh oh oh)

If you fall for me
I’m not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start

I’m only gonna break break your, break break your heart [x4]

[Ludacris]
That’s all I’m gonna do woman
(Whoa) Listen now, I’m only gonna break your heart
And shatter and splatter it all into little bitty pieces (whoa)
Whether or not you get it all together
Then its finder’s keepers and losers weepers (whoa)
See I’m not trying to lead you on
No I’m only trying to keep it real (whoa)
You might say this is Ludacris
But Taio Cruz tell her how you feel

[Taio Cruz]
(Eh) and I know karma’s gonna get me back for being so cold (eh)
Like a big bad wolf I’m born to be bad and bad to the bone (eh)
If you fall for me I’m only gonna tear you apart (eh)
Told ya from the start (eh)

I’m only gonna break break your, break break your heart [x4]
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

Cobus Potgieter.

2010-08-25T22:28:00.000+07:00

yo guys! wazzap? haha. ya, there im begining to wrote something about my new inspirating people, my only one husbie [?], my love, my hero, my all in all. hahaha.

yapyap, his name is Cobus Potgieter. I knew him from QQ's FB Account. He said that Cobus Potgieter is one of the best drummer in this world. Actually, because i'm a drummer [Well, not good but not bad to play it so haha], so I want to know who is him. So I check for his video on Youtube. And from there, i knew that Cobus is The King of Cover. He covers many hits songs like Careful by Paramore, Jay Sean's song, Breaking Benjamin, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, etc.

Since i know about him, I felt in love with him. He is very handsome [for me :P] so perfectlaah, soogood at drumming [the gossips said that he's the next The Rev :)], nice face, nice attitude. So, what's bad about that? Sooo good. Haha

here is some my photo collection :

You wanna say what? I know. Letme guess that! Oh sure, HE IS SO DAMN CUTE? Isn't? Haha. Ya, that's why i love him. Haha.

See yu lata, dears:)

Super-Duper Huffth.

2010-08-23T04:27:00.001+07:00

Zzz sembuh juga tu CBOX.. Ganti baru deh, terpaksa.. Ngelupain yang lama, gara2 suka Eror sendiri kaga jelas. Bye cbox lama gue.. I'll miss you sooooo much :* :* Okeoke.. Isi cbox gue yang baru yak :D Awkawoakwoakw

[sungguh, ini adalah postingan tidak penting diwaktu sehabis sahur. dan sungguh, sesungguhnya perbuatan ini sangat keji dan mungkar.]

Broken At Last

2010-08-22T15:02:00.000+07:00

Drought splinters with first drops of rain,

needle-sharp, cold

Clouds collapse their great grey bosoms, releasing tonrents sucked up..

by earth of summer scorching..

Day shivers awake, sodden

almost afraid it's a dream..

Trees and bushes are recast

in ornate shininess..

Like green stands of the novveau newly rich.. riche..

Tin-odour tang..

of fresh rain strings my nostrils..

as I emerge..

feel this baptiser, flow over my head,

stream down my body..

my bare feet squelch..

through grasses as I dance.. in the drought-breaker,

my faith in nature restored..

by this lush werness

rinsing away doubt and fear..

should i stay or..

2010-08-22T12:58:00.000+07:00

Darling, you got to let me know

should i stay or should i go?
If you say that you are mine
I'll be here till the end of time

I can feel blue. Too.

2010-08-22T12:45:00.002+07:00

Am I living a dream that isn't mine? I feel like I'm not where I'm supposed to be, not surrounded by people who should be around me, not in the path I should be walking through. But that's life, I guess. All you can do is hope and dream. And even though you try hard to be who you want to be, you'd be a lucky one in between millions, if you ever get there. If you don't, well you just gotta accept it. No matter how bitter it feels. I have not been myself lately, I'm like a machine, doing orders and moving under someone's control. Not that I'm saying that I hate my life, but to be frank, I wish it could be better. I secretly cry myself to bed sometimes. This place, this life, this person. Where, what, who?

Yet there's a passion in my heart, but my voice can't come out. There's a will in my guts, but my muscles can't work.

But I ask myself again, is this just a thing grown ups go through? The breakdowns, the heartbreaks, the unfulfilled expectations?

I've became best friends with the airplanes, the clouds, and the wind. But they can't take me where I want to be.

God. Pls.

2010-08-22T12:33:00.000+07:00

Dear God,

I don't know how to send You a letter, but sure I make this post for You.

Thank You, for being so kind and keep me healthy everyday. Giving me air to breathe in, ability to walk, eyes to see how beautiful world is, ears to listen everybody's problems, hands to touch, and soul to feel.

I feel more human these days.

Dear God,

I know it's kinda rude to ask for more since you've given me bliss everyday. Please take care of my soulmate, God. He is ill, and it takes only a second for me to burst into tears. Everybody says it's a cliche, but I don't feel this like a cliche. This kind of feeling under my skin and push me to cry. I cry so hard right after hear the news.

And God,

Thanks for giving me so much tears to shed. Because I know, I cry for a good reason.

Kyu.

p.s:

It tears me apart to know that you're ill, it's the second biggest fear after losing my 1st love. Get well soon, my hunny. Don't force yourself and please try to eat vegetables. My prayers go with you

정말 보고싶어요, 규 오빠

Hi. Im back.

2010-08-18T08:19:00.000+07:00

Hi guys, beberapa lama gue off dari dunia blogging, beberapa hari yang lalu sebenernya gue udah pengen balik kesini lagi. Udah banyaaak banget cerita yang pengen gue tulis, tapi karena sibuknya jadwal acara (ciaelah artis.com) akhirnya gue ga sempet lagi buat bagi2 cerita disini.

Well, banyak banget yang bisa gue bagi disini sebenernya, yang di fb ato tweet gue (just when you following @athavta) ga lo ketahui.. Mulai dari acara drumming, nyanyi, sampe jadi seorang senior di ekskul pramuka (yang bikin gue kehilangan hape gue tersayang).

Then, I want to say thank you buat semua orang yang udah mau balik kesini, baca2 cerita 'nyampah bin iseng' gue.. Sori lama bales blogwalkingan kalian.. Haha, but i promise sometimes i'll come back here :)

Thank you friends.
Love you, Atha.

The Quilt

2010-07-22T10:08:00.000+07:00

As I faced my Maker at the last Judgment,I knelt before the Lord along with the other souls.

Before each of us laid our lives, likethe squares of a quilt, in many piles. An Angel sat beforeeach of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry thatis our life. As my Angel took each piece of cloth off thepile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes.

Each square was labeled with a part ofmy life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptationsI was faced with in everyday life. I saw hardships thatI had endured, which were the largest holes of all.

I glanced around me. Nobody elsehad such squares. Other than a tiny hole here and there,the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the brighthues of worldly fortune.

I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened. My Angel was sewing the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbareand empty, like binding air.

Finally the time came when each life wasto be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth. The others rose, each in turn, holding up their tapestries. So filled their lives had been.

My Angel looked upon me, and nodded for me to rise. My gazedropped to the ground in shame. I hadn’t had all theearthly fortunes. I had love in my life, and laughter. Therehad also been trials of illness and death, and false accusationsthat took from me my world as I knew it. I had to startover many times. I often struggled with the temptation toquit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and beginagain. I had spent many nights on my knees in prayer, askingfor help and guidance in my life. I had often been heldup to ridicule, which I endured painfully; each time offeringit up to the Father in hopes that I would not melt within my skinbeneath the judgmental gaze of those who unfairly judged me. NowI had to face the truth. My life was what it was, and Ihad to accept it for what it had been.

I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to thelight. An awe-filled gasp filled the air. I gazedaround at the others who stared at me with eyes wide. Then,I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded themany holes, creating an image. The face of God. Thenour Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in His eyes.

He said, ”Every time you gave overyour life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, and My struggles. Each point of light in your life is when you stepped asideand asked Me shine through, until there was more of Me than therewas of you.”

May all your quilts be threadbare and worn having God shinethrough.

Kebijaksanaan Dari Sepotong Pensil

2010-07-17T21:41:00.002+07:00

“Nenek lagi menulis tentang pengalaman kita ya? atau tentang aku?”

Mendengar pertanyaan si cucu, sang nenek berhenti menulis dan berkata kepada cucunya,

“Sebenarnya nenek sedang menulis tentang kamu, tapi ada yang lebih penting dari isi tulisan ini yaitu pensil yang nenek pakai. Nenek harap kamu bakal seperti pensil ini ketika kamu besar nanti”, ujar si nenek lagi.

Mendengar jawaban ini, si cucu kemudian melihat pensilnya dan bertanya kembali kepada si nenek ketika dia melihat tidak ada yang istimewa dari pensil yang nenek pakai.

“Tapi nek, sepertinya pensil itu sama saja dengan pensil yang lainnya”, Ujar si cucu.

Si nenek kemudian menjawab,

“Itu semua tergantung bagaimana kamu melihat pensil ini. Pensil ini mempunyai 5 kualitas yang bisa membuatmu selalu tenang dalam menjalani hidup, kalau kamu selalu memegang prinsip-prinsip itu di dalam hidup ini”, Si nenek kemudian menjelaskan 5 kualitas dari sebuah pensil.

pertama:

pensil mengingatkan kamu kalau kamu bisa berbuat hal yang hebat dalam hidup ini. Layaknya sebuah pensil ketika menulis, kamu jangan pernah lupa kalau ada tangan yang selalu membimbing langkah kamu dalam hidup ini. Kita menyebutnya Allah, Dia akan selalu membimbing kita menurut kehendakNya”.

kedua:

dalam proses menulis, nenek kadang beberapa kali harus berhenti dan menggunakan rautan untuk menajamkan kembali pensil nenek. Rautan ini pasti akan membuat si pensil menderita. Tapi setelah proses meraut selesai, si pensil akan mendapatkan ketajamannya kembali. Begitu juga dengan kamu, dalam hidup ini kamu harus berani menerima penderitaan dan kesusahan, karena merekalah yang akan membuatmu menjadi orang yang lebih baik”.

ketiga:

pensil selalu memberikan kita kesempatan untuk mempergunakan penghapus, untuk memperbaiki kata-kata yang salah. Oleh karena itu memperbaiki kesalahan kita dalam hidup ini, bukanlah hal yang jelek. Itu bisa membantu kita untuk tetap berada pada jalan yang benar”.

keempat:

bagian yang paling penting dari sebuah pensil bukanlah bagian luarnya, melainkan arang yang ada di dalam sebuah pensil. Oleh sebab itu, selalulah hati-hati dan menyadari hal-hal di dalam dirimu”.

kelima:

sebuah pensil selalu meninggalkan tanda/goresan…

Seperti juga kamu, kamu harus sadar kalau apapun yang kamu perbuat dalam hidup ini akan tinggalkan kesan. Oleh karena itu selalulah hati-hati dan sadar terhadap semua tindakan”.

Sumber : Inspiring Story III ( The Inspirings Go On )

-_-

2010-07-15T23:21:00.002+07:00

tuhan, bahkan dia membuatku tak bisa tertidur lelap sekarang. tolong aku tuhan, berikan sinarmu.. i need you, God.

...

2010-07-15T23:17:00.000+07:00

tuhan, malam ini aku merasakan kebahagiaan yang sungguh pernah kurasakan 6 bulan yang lalu. aku suka tuhan. aku cinta. aku suka caranya tersenyum padaku, aku suka caranya berjalan, aku suka binaran dari matanya, aku suka melihat lucunya bagaimana dia memainkan kok bulutangkis. aku suka hidungnya, aku suka rambutnya, aku suka gayanya berbicara. aku tak tau tuhan bagaimana harusku menjelaskan padamu tentangnya. dia, mengembalikan kenanganku tentangnya tuhan. orang yang benar benar ingin aku benci seutuhnya, namun dia malah kembali lagi kemarin. tuhan, kali ini tak akan kuingkari keputusanmu. bolehkah aku bersamanya, selamanya?

Wishlist on My New Grade.

2010-07-13T14:31:00.001+07:00

Hey All. I am cobek (comebek?). Just want to post something that i called as 'My Wishlist on My New Grade 2010'. And, Here we go:

*bahasa indonesia aja kali ya? wkwk ribet amat
1. Potong Rambut jadi pendek abis {ato potong cowok kalo perlu sekalian} tujuannya mungkin pengen nunjukin kalo aku itu bukan aku yang dulu, pengen nunjukin kalo aku itu beda dan udah bertransformasi ato apalahitu. dan pengen kalo nantinya ADA orang yang suka sama aku itu gak lihat aku dari wajahnya. haha.

2. More Open Minded. Jadi lebih terbuka sama semua orang. Kata guru BK yang suka bawel sama saya itu, saya kurang terbuka sama orang. Terlalu pendiam, kalo ke toilet gitu katanya kalo jalan suka nonton bawah terus sambil nguprekin rambut. Iya abis ga tau mau ngapain sih -_--''

3. Lebih Serius dan Fokus. Bukannya di taun sebelumnya aku gak Serius dan Fokus. Cuman pikiran kalo dikelas apalagi waktu pas diterangin suka melayang2 sendiri. Ada yang ke Utara, ke Selatan, Ke barat danlaenlaen. Lebih2 soal Fokus. Jadi aku milih duduk di depan itu karena aku pengen lebih Fokus dan Serius dari yang sebelum2nya dalam Pelajaran. Okelah pokoknya.

4. Not In A Relationship with Someone. Wkwkw. Iye dah, mau bilang Playgirl tobat kek, mau bilang Sarap kek, mo bilang Gila kek terserah kalian. But it's my new plan! For better living! wkwkw T.T Iya gitulah, namanya Pacaran walo judulnya cuman buat mainan, tetep aja kalo lagi saling ngambek juga bikin pikiran. Dan kalo pikiran yang gak2, balik ke point 3, bikin gak fokus. Dan kalo ga fokus bisa ngerusak semua hal yang udah disusun dengan apik dan rapih. NO WAY YA!

5. Memperbaiki Nilai. Yepyep, as you know, abis putus sama That Person, di Mid Smt II dan akhirnya berkelanjutan di Smt II, padahal di SMT I udah dapet rank 8. Ckckck. But, yang lalu biarlah berlalu, jangan lagi ini terjadi *nyanyi, RED*

6. Dapet Good Position (as Playmaker Maunya) di Basket.

7. Badminton, minimal bisa dapet 1st Position di 2 Laga.

8. Rajin Sholat. Wkwkw yang ini sih, Mungkin karena udah mau deket 2012 mungkin ya. But more of that, Gw pengen jadi cewe baik! Rajin Sholat dan Ngaji itu perlu gw rasa. Cayoss lah!

9. Nabung! Kalo nabung yang ini sih pengen'a buat bli Sony Ericsson XPRERIA X10 yang harganya kira2 1550 an, sekarang aja baru kekumpul 100 ribu. ckckc. masih kurang 1450 nih. Haha

10. Nyusul!

Bye.

When something isn't good. It is bad. Period.

2010-07-04T17:53:00.002+07:00

lifehouse - broken

2010-07-04T17:29:00.000+07:00

"The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home"

"I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating."

another lame notes haha

2010-07-04T16:47:00.000+07:00

This is for all:

the ones who recently married,
the ones who have been married,
the ones who soon to get married, and
the ones who are still looking.

Years ago,
I asked God to give me a spouse, "You don't own because you didn't ask"

God said. Not only I asked for a spouse but also explained what kind of spouse I wanted. I want a nice, tender, forgiving, passionate, honest, peaceful, generous, understanding, pleasant, warm, intelligent, humorous, attentive, compassionate and truthful spouse. I even mentioned the physical characteristics I dream about. As time went by I added the required list of my wanted spouse.

One night, in my prayer,
God talked to my heart : "My servant, I cannot give you what you want"

I asked, "Why God?"

God said "Because I am God and I am fair. God is the truth and all I do are true and right"

I asked "God, I don't understand why I cannot have what I ask from you?".

God answered, "I will explain. It is not fair and right for Me to fulfill your demand, because I cannot give something that is not your own self. It is not fair to give someone who is full of love to you if sometimes you are still hostile, or to give you someone generous but sometimes you can be cruel, or someone forgiving; however, you still hide revenge, someone sensitive however, you are very insensitive....".

God then said to me :
"It is better for Me to give you someone who I know could grow to have all qualities you are searching rather than to make you waste your time to find someone who already have the qualities you want. Your spouse would be bone from your bone and flesh from your flesh and you will see yourself in her and both of you will be one. Marriage is like a school. It is a life-long education. It is where you and your partner make adjustment and aim not merely to please each other, but to be better human beings and to make a solid teamwork."

I do not give you a perfect partner, because you are not perfect either. I give you a partner with whom you would grow with."

sooo random

2010-07-04T16:04:00.004+07:00

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, and hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."

awayyy

2010-07-01T19:00:00.000+07:00

hey guys. i'll be away from my blog, my tweets, fspring, looklet(obviously) for two days (minimal). i have to follow the badminton schoolarship audition on pb djarum kudus. my reg number is 0864. wish me lucky ya:) please pray for me! i love you all. atha.

absolutely. me :)

2010-06-29T08:11:00.001+07:00

sound so lame?

2010-06-28T15:49:00.002+07:00

tadi aku buka2 kaskus,iseng buka heart to heart dan baca sebuah post yang membuat aku lumayan amazed sih *.* ini linknya!

kalo lagi males buka,aku copy paste ya walaupun cuma yang menurutku paling bagus aja.

jangan jd sok kuat, lo bukan wonder woman. jgnlah lo lari dari masa lalu lo, krn itu sudah terjadi. jgn siksa diri lo sendiri dgn memaksa utk senang dengan pelarian lo ini n berusaha kuat menerima beban sendirian... gw tau, deep down in your heart, u wanna cry so loud... so loud... bahkan sampai dirilo ga tau mau sampe kapan.

skrg, inilah gw. apa adanya. hadir dalam hiduplo. dengan 1 tawaran indah, kasih sayang

gw mungkin bukan lee min ho yg ganteng n digilai banyak cewe. gw bukan leonardo dicaprio yg cool n menang piala oscar. gw bukan ronaldo cr7 yg bertubuh sempurna dan kemana2 bawa ferarri. gw bukan siapa - siapa yg punya harta ga abis utk 7 turunan atau bisa meraih apa pun yg gw mau...

tp gw dateng ke lo membawa sejuta harapan. gw dah ngebayangin banyak hal yg akan kita lakukan berdua, ya berdua. it's only me n u against the world
gw mau ngobatin luka hatilo itu. gw mau ada di sampinglo disaat lo butuh laki - laki utk melengkapi kisah hiduplo. gw mau minjemin bahu gw disaat lo lelah. gw mau kasih lo pelukan disaat lo butuh perlindungan atau tempat utk menangis dari jahatnya dunia. gw mau kecup keninglo disaat lo butuh kasih sayang. gw mau nunggu lo disaat lo sibuk dengan segala kegiatan jalan2lo. gw mau dateng n jaga lo disaat lo sakit. gw akan nganterin lo kemana pun lo mau. n gw mau ngebuatlo merasa jadi wanita paling bahagia di dunia dengan segala keterbatasan gw.

gw dah bilang itu ke dia kmrn, agan2. tp dia masih blm kasih jawaban. memang gw yg nyuruh dia utk memikirkan hal ini, walau gw rasa scara halus dia dah nolak gw kmrn, tp gw tetep minta dia pertimbangin dulu.

sejujurnya, dr dulu gw selalu punya prinsip bahwa kalo patah hati, gw ga akan lama2 nunggu cewe yg nolak gw n akan segera buka lembaran baru kisah hidup gw utk wanita yg lain, n utk cewe2 yg sebelumnya gw bisa seperti itu. tp knp skrg ga? gw bukannya ga mau bergerak maju dalam hidup gw, tp gw ga bisa... hati ini ga bisa menggeser halamannya ke halaman baru. halaman kisah hidup gw skrg terlalu berat, terlalu sakit, terlalu indah, terlalu sempurna utk di tilnggalkan. n gw ga bisa buka lembaran baru.

tau lagu the script yg judulnya the man who can't be moved? skrg gw adalah laki2 di perempatan itu. yg rela diriin tenda, kepanasan di siang, keujanan di malam, menghabiskan waktunya hanya utk menunggu sang gadis. gw ga bisa ngusir lo dr pikiran gw tiap harinya, n gw ga mau sampe melakukan hal itu. gw mau kita membangun keluarga bersama n lo akan ada di samping gw saat gw meraih kesuksesan dunia nanti.

yg aku gedein tulisannya itu,karena itu bener2 ngerepresentasikan pikiranku sekarang. itu bikin aku berpikir ternyata banyak ya, yang satu pikiran sama itu lagu -,-

menurutku cewek ini,she's lucky. kenapa? karena masnya ini bener2 bisa bikin terharu dengan postnya aja -_- apalagi di real life. god.

bye.

How I Meet You

2010-06-28T15:22:00.000+07:00

Found this wedding invitation over the internet and found it incredibly sweet...:)

I copied from HERE

i. miss. you.

2010-06-25T13:58:00.002+07:00

How I miss your face
The touch of your embrace

The distance between us
Is but a silent glance

But this won't take away
These words I have to say

How I wish I could tell you
How much I wanted you
Each day grows my longing
Away from you I find myself dying

How I wish I could tell you
How much missed you
For within my solace dreams
You're so near it seems

How wished you mine
For that, my dear, is another time
Each passing whisper
Are your words I hear

Each time you call
The More deeply I fall
I whisper you these words true
That indeed I do miss you

waiting. for my prince.

2010-06-25T13:57:00.000+07:00

Waiting for my prince in this white wedding dress,
As this is the day I'd become his princess.
My heart was racing as I thought of his smile,
feeling so anxious to walk down the isle.

Waited patiently til' guests left the place,
Only to realise I'd never see his face.
I sat and pondered on why he never came,
I guess it's only me I can really blame.

My man, my love, my prince and my dear,
You've caused a day every woman would fear.
I'll just lay here waiting for you while I weep,
And wish I'd never wake up from this sleep.

think about it. now.

2010-06-25T13:39:00.003+07:00

kemah akhir tahunn Last Part

2010-06-25T13:34:00.000+07:00

Next! haha. Lanjut yeee buk ceritanyaa.
Oke. Setelah kita pulang dari Air Terjun Montel, kita sempet ke Khajar. Tempatnya keluar dari Taman Colo sih. Tapi gajauh2 banget. Tempatnya, yaa kaya TMP gitulah. cuman lebih tinggi kali ya dari TMP. Viewnya kereeen bangetdah pokoknya. Cocok buat orang pacaran. HAHAH -,-dan abis turun dari bukitnya, kita sempet maen game disana. Yupyup GAME! Hihi. What Game? emh, yang cowo suruh cari cara mindahin 6 batu buat 7 orang dan harus cukup semua dalam satu kali lompat barengan gitudeh. Dan yang cewe suruh cari cara supaya kaki 9 orang cukup dalam sebuah batu yang Kecil nya ~~Amitamit~~ wkwkwk. Dan kelompok gue kalah 2-0 sama kelompok sebelah. Well, gapapa lah, namanya juga GAME. \m/

diatas bukitnya.

narsis waktu mau turun bukit :D

view. Keren yaaaaaa? :D

Regu Cowo. Haha

Pas yang cowo maen

Regu Lawan. ZZZZZZT ahahhaa

Kegiatan Santai Menyantai diterusin ampe Malem. Well, mungkin karena kecapean kali ya.
dan lagi2 the worst partnya, kita makan NASI ~~setengah mateng setengah mentah~~ lg -,- garaa2 yang masak ga jelass banget (iya orang masak malah ditinggal balik ke tenda, gimana ga suru gosong semua coba-,-)

Lanjut.
Paginya, gw n temen2 ga bisa bangun siang karena hari itu ~~lagilagi~~ dapet jatah buat masak. Okay, jam 4, dengan meninggalkan sholat subuh akhirnya kita masak bareng2. Masak Nasi SENDIRI tanpa ditemenin sama kaka kelas ato alumni (masih pada ngorok n mimpi indah kaliyaaa-,-). Nah karena kita gatau mau masak apa dan berhubung yang tersisa tinggal Mie ama Telor, jadilah kita cuman masak Mie yang dimasukin ke adonan Telor.

view dari taman tempat maen ayunan. kalo malem keren lo! HAHA cuman sayang susah banget motretnya-,-

anak anak yang masa kecilnya kurang puas. HAHAH :D

Dann nyebelinnya, adalah waktu kita lg asik2nya masak, eh tiba2 tu kaka kelas gatau diri (karena ninggal tidur bocah kecil dan nongol2 malah ngamuk) dateng kaaya monster busted banget deh. Kita dimarain gara2 salah masak. Yaa seharusnya yang salah sapa dong, kita jam segitu udah bangun lah, udah bagus kita masak, ENAK lagi. Lagian kalo semalem dikasi tau kita mau masak apa juga ga akan gitu jadinya hey! dan pembinanya pun ngebiarin kita masak. Situ yang cuman alumni doang aja pake acara mara2 segala. Zzz whattahell!


regu gw susah payah masak -,- dan Si Dhani (baju garis2) dengan gaya ~~ngeboss~~nya enakan ngeliatin doang.	aaaah

Lanjut! Abis Olahraga+Makan Pagi, kita pergi Ziarah ke makan Sunan Muria a.k.a Raden Mas Said sapa gitu (zzz). Ga ada dokumentasi satupun. Coz waktu kita masuk kesana tempatnya tuh udah gimanaa gitu, dan disana juga udah dipasang (wkt di dalem makam) warning ~~dilarang mengambil gambar atau mendokumentasikan sesuatu.~~ Nah lo, serem kan? Hahah -,-

Daaan, sebelom nyampe di makamnya, kita DIHARUSKAN naikin 460 biji anak tangga menuju ke sana. ebuseeeet bawaan nya udah berat banget mana suru naikin tangga bejibun. sapa yg kuat coba? ahaha tapi ALHAMDULILLAH, kita bisa:)
Sesampenya di gerbang atas sebelom masuk makamnya, kita yang bawa hape sempet dongkol banget. Niatnya mau apdet status fesbuk (hhhzt-,-) eh ternyata GAK ADA SINYAL SAMA SEKALI. itu PAS di gerbangnya. tapi kalo lo maju satu langkah lebar aja dari itu gerbang, jamin deh sinyalnya bakal FULL. aneh kan? iyaaa gitudeh, ~~misticksss~~ -,- wkwkw

Lanjut. Abis bacain surat Yasiin barengbareng, kita turun dari makamnya (baca: tempat ziarah nya) terus kita masuk ke suatu ruangan gitu dibawah makam, kita mau ngambil air dari gentong peninggalan beliau. Bukan ada maksud mau sesat ato aapaan, tapi emang setelah kita minum itu aer rasanya gimanaaa gitu. kaya ada yang nyetruum (cielaah) aahaha -,-

Abis itu, kita pulang. Shopping kanan kiri. Beli gelang lah, kaluung lah, gantungan kunci lah, gantungan hape lah, bajuu (ada baju jakmania juga lo! wkwkw) sampe makanan kaya Ganyong (sejenis ketela gitu), Jeruk bali, Brem, Kurma, Emping (yang kaya kacang garuda itu), Lempuyang (sama kaya ganyong cuman bedanya ini bentuknya lonjong panjang gt), sirsak, duku, apa lagi yek? banyaaak lah. gw sih cuman beli dikit, gara2 ga pinter nawar jadi duit 50 rb cuman dapet dikit2 ckck-,-

Puass belanja, kita balik ke tenda. Of Course, naik MerSIKIL alias kaki. -,-. Nunggu makan siang yang (paling juga gaenak lg) akirnya gw ama temen2 milih nyari makan di depan musholla taman ria colo (tmpat kita kemah). walo sebenernya sama aja sih menunya, mie goreng pake nasi plus esteh -,-

Abis itu, anak2 pada maen ayunan di taman. Yaa secara gitu pemandangannya indah banget binti langka (dari sana kita bsa liat kota kudus, demak, semarang ama jepara (cuman kelap kelipnya doang tapi haha)) serasa kita maen Zuma gitu. Wkwkwk.

Well, abis itu jam 3 an setelah kita dikerjain abis2an (tp menurut gw itu gak ngerjain, ngedown in mental malah) ama alumni ama kaka kelas yg anjir banget (gw dikatain suka tebar pesona coba. aapa maunya mereka? zzzz \o/)abis itu kita masih aja dikerjain suruh minum satu botol buat banyak orang. Well, gapapalah itung2 ~~vitamin ++~~. Abis itu kita pulang.

Sekitar jam 6 an kita udah nyampe Jepara lagi.
Well guys, Sebuah Pengalaman yang Ga bakal gue lupain. Bareng Kaka kelas yang (mungkin) ga bakal gw liat lagi taon depan ato besok. Makan nasi aking, Manis, Pait, semuanyalah! Intinya banyak pelajaran yg gw dapet dari situ. Pulang2 Gw alhamdulilah jarang bolong Sholat, baek, ~~Sopan lah sama ortu~~.

Thanks a lotta buat semuanya. Buat anak Regu Anggrek, Dyba, Milla, Vivi, Farah, Widya P., Widya R., dan dua anak lagi yang ~~gue ga apal namanya~~. Makasih udah ngasi pengalaman berharga buat gw. Yang bikin gw lebih sadar kalo sombong itu ga ada artinya, dan punya banyak temen itu lebih asik! hihi.

Udah ah, capek gw typing mulu.
haha. sambung besok yaa:) Si Yu Lata, Dears:)

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Some Pict. Taken by Myself. Haha


Ini pemandangan dari tempat gw kemah. Keren yak? HAHA :)

pemandangan waktu hiking hari ke dua. Model : Kak Denny

kemah akhir tahunn yea! PART I

2010-06-25T10:28:00.002+07:00

Hey guys!
ghahah Long Time No See this blog {padahal juga cuman lima hari-,-} Wazzap yea?
wkwkw.

yeh, menghilangnya saya dari rumah adalah bukan karena saya kabur dari rumah-,- tetapi saya sedang dalam perjalanan panjaaaaaaang{?} yang melelahkan, seru, asik, capek, nyebelin, nyebai, dan lainlainnya dalam rangka kegiatan akhir tahun. HE HE HE :D

colo's view. perjalanan hiking ke puncak gunung. ke air terjun tiga rasa.

yupyup, tiga hari kmaren {21-22-23 Juni 2010} kemarin aku dan anak pramuka SMPN 1 Jepara kemah dalam rangka Kegiatan PRAMUKA akhir tahun ke Colo, Dawe, Kudus, Jawa Tengah, Indonesia, Asia (lengkap?so whatwhat?) wkwkw. dan kali ini gw mau cerita sama kalian soal pengalamanku ini yang (i think) merubah sedikit-banyak hal jelek dalam hidupku (ciaelah-,-)

well. kita ke sekolah pada hari senin, sekitar jam delapanan. karena minggu sorenya waktu kita kumpul kita gak punya banyak persiapan (krn dadakan) akhirnya saat itu juga pembagian tugas baru dimulai. kak slamet (pembina kita) langsung bagi tugas sapa aja yang ke pasar buat belanja, ngangkut barang ke truk, beli dan ambil perlengkapan, ngurus ini itu, banyak lah. akhirnya aku masuk ke regu yang beli perlengkapan makan di pasar. haha. well, sebenernya aku bener2 gak ada pengalaman dalam hal yang namanya M-A-S-A-K. yaa taulah, saya itu kaya kebo yang males, megang bawang merah aja jarang banget kalo ga dimarain mama duluan. haha. tapi gimanapun saya tetep anak yang baik (duileeeh-,-) karena saya sering merhatiin mama masak di dapur, yaa sedikit2 banyak taulah soal masak memasak. akhirmya hari itu diputusin buat bikin menu oseng2 kangkung, soto ayam, sama nasi goreng n tumis sawi.

mumpung truk mogok. narsis dikit^^

suasana dalem truk. kumpulan ~~masnusia cantik dan ganteng~~ berubah jadi kumpulan kambing.

abis semua persiapan selese, akhirnya sekitar jam 10 an kita kumpul depan truk (kejaam) yang akan membawa kita ke colo. setelah sedikit diceramahin sama pembina OSIS dan pembina Pramuka kita, akhirnya kita semua naek ke truk. karena gw ga dapet tempat buat duduk (ogah ah kalo bediri-,-) akhirnya gw nangkring di atas tumpukan tas, bareng sama mas2 alumni. heuu, seru sih sama mereka. kita sempet maen gitar bareng, nyanyi bareng. banyak lah. haha. jam 13.00 an kita udah sampe disana. perjalanan dari jepara cukup lancar, cuman sedikit kehambat gara2 ada operasi polisi di daerah perbatasan jepara-kudus. tapi itu bukan masalah besar. wkwkw.

sampenya disana, abis angkut2 semua barang, kita bareng2 ndiriin tenda masing2 yang jumlah tendanya ada enam (2 regu cewe kelas I, 1 regu cowo kelas 1, 2 regu cewe-cowo kelas 2, 1 tenda alumni, dan 1 tenda dapur umum). abis selse ndiriin tenda dan segala macem, SEHARUSNYA kita pergi renang di deket situ, tapi karena dinilai udah pada capek, akhirnya kita ngisi hari pertama itu dengan leyeh leyeh. -,-. Dan sialnya lagi, giliran masak pertama kali hari itu adalah regu gw. Jadilah gw dan temen2 capek2 dari jam 4 sampe jam 6 an masak nasi, dan soto. Untung aja dimakan cukup enak. Haha.

tenda regu ku.

Malemnya, diisi sama kegiatan doa bersama dan senang senang ria (perasaan senang2 mulu??-,-) Abis jam 9 an semua anak udah ga pada berani keluar tenda saking dinginnya udara di Colo (colo ada di gunung muria). Dan acara hari itu diakhiri dengan Mimpi Indah. ^^

suasana dalem tenda saia^^

#The 2nd Days
Hari kedua. Kita bangun jam 5 an, agak siang emang, karena hari itu kita gak dapet jadwal buat masak. Abis itu kita langsung ngantri toilet buat mandi (dengan air ~~ess~~ dingin) dan abis itu kita sholat subuh bareng satu tenda di masjid. Abis itu kita nerusin kegiatan dengan Olahraga bareng. And we did the Yoga. yang dipandu sama Suhu Reza (wejieeh-,-) ahahaha. setelah puass olahraga yoga tereak2 segala, rasanya perut udah nyelenggarain konsernya ~~Super Junior~~ di perut. Akhirnya kita makan SEADANYA. dengan nasi yang setengah mateng setengah mentah(\o/) dan sedikit mie serta tempe ~~pait~~ akhirnya kita terpaksa makan buat ngganjal perut. Hfthh.
Habis itu, HIKING pun dimulai.

*Tempat pertama : Air Tiga Rasa
Jam delapanan kita kumpul di bagian atas. Setelah baris, akhirnya kita jalan satu satu buat mendaki gunung Muria yang jalannya berliku2 (amit2-,-) dalam rangka menuju ke Air Tiga Rasa yang terletak di Balik gunung Muria. Kita jalan terus, sampe akhirnya kita ngos ngosan dan agak gak kuat waktu nyampe di suatu jalan yang curam banget, tau gak, kalo diukur mungkin tu jalan gedenya bisa sampe 45 derajat! bayangin aja tingkat kemiringannya. Setelah capek ngelewatin tu jalan dengan alot, akhirnya kita istirahat di suatu pos, gerbang menuju tempat hiking ke air tiga rasa.

istirahat di pos menuju tempat hiking.

Abis itu, kita ngelanjutin perjalanan. Jalannya jauuuh banget, masuk keluar hutan lindung colo. tempatnya mungkin bisa dibilang emang udah bebas ya. Soalnya banyak banget bunyi2an yang mungkin di kota emang ga bakal lo temuin. akhirnya kita jalan dengan santay sekalligus sambil nikmatin suasana alam yang alami. maklum kita ~~orang kota~~ yang jarang liat beginian. HAHA.

jembatan 'maut' (model: al ghani *blkg and dhani *dpn)

narsis di sungai kecil2an, waktu istirahat sebelum naek ke air tiga rasa

Yeah. Abis nyebrang jembatan 'maut' (dikata maut karena taun lalu ada kaka kelas yang HAMPIR nyebur ke jurang nya) kita istirahat di sebuah sungai kecil2an di bawah jalan yang harus didaki sebelom sampe ke air tiga rasa. Abis itu, kita naek ke atas, dan sampailah kita di Air terjun tiga rasa. HAHA. PUASSS sekali rasanya,

anak2 pada ngambil aer tiga rasa buat dibawa pulang.

disclamer di sana. air tiga rasa ini ternyata sebenarnya adalah sebuah petilasan syaikh sadzali yang berasal dari air belerang gunung muria.

Well. Sesampainya disana, aku beli 3 botol Aqua gede (yang akhirnya cuman kebawa satu botol doang-,-) yang isinya aer dari tiga rasa itu (sebenernya cuman satu rasa sih). Abis puas disana dan setelah istirahat bentar, perjalanan dilanjutkan ke Air Terjun Montel.

*Air Terjun Montel
Setelah dari Puncak gunung Muria,kita jalan turuun terus, ngelewatin jalan yang curam, dan sempit (lagi lagi^^) gak lama dari Tiga Rasa. Abis turun sebuah jalan setapak, akhirnya kita nyampe ke Air Terjun Montel.

my group. HAHA

me and widya

najonk ya gw? ahah -,-

Sesuai dengan rencana awal, Akhirnya gw dan temen'' ~~BERENANG~~ disono. Dan akhirnya kita kapok dan gak kuat lama'' disitu. Karena dinginnyaaa engak maen2, cobain aja sendiri kalo ga percaya. Rasanya kaya lo nyemplung di kutub utara ato kolam renang di rumah lo wktu musim dingiin. haha-,-.
Karena ga kuat lama2, akhirnya gw cepet2 in mandi (sialnya pake air yang dingin juga-,-) Dan saat itulah gw ngerasa badan gw bentar lagi membeku. Karena gw ga mau itu bener2 kejadian, akhirnya gw cepet2 ke warung makan di sebelah kamar mandi itu. Disana gw makan sepuasnya. Gw ngabisin dua gelas teh anget, satu piring nasi ama mie goreng, dan dua buah pop mie. Dan gara2 itu, ludes lah duit gw sebanyak 20ribu-,- WKWKKW.

*bersambung di Part II

random?so what

2010-06-24T22:38:00.001+07:00

im not at a good mood now. HAHA. ya gatau kenapa, tp yg pasti besok, setelah gw selesein tugas pembantu, gw bakal posting sepuas puasnya! WOKE? haha. #gilajasihlo si yu lata' dear,mememe

Happy Birthday Three!

2010-06-18T13:19:00.002+07:00

Hey guys
Kali ini gw mau cerita dikitdikit soal temen gw yang hari ini,18 Juni 2010 Ulang Tahun.
Namanya Shinta Dewi Triandiny, dikelas dipanggilnya Shinta. Tapi anak2 kelas laen yang dulu satu sekolah ama dia suka manggil dia Mbul. Entahlah, maksudnya Mbul Gembul atau Mbul Jambul karena dia itu emang duaduanya. Dia gendut (well, dia gak trlalu gendut. Normal lah) dan rambutnya yanng kriting bin panjang itu bikin suatu benda yang bentuknya mirip kaya jambul di bagian poninya.

KUE. korban kejahatan diskriminasi anak2 alastua. HAHA

Haha. okey.. Hari ini seperti biasa, karena KBM udah selese jadi kita jam bebas. Dan anak2 disana berhasil menodai empat buah komputer kelas yang udah gak karuan gimana isinya karena diisi yang engak2 (game maksutnya) buat maen game. yang GTA Offline, Luna, RO, Warcraft III, Point Blank danlainlain sehingga membuat suasana kelas jadi kaya Warnet Game Online. Ya gitulah, kitalah Alastua's. Haha angkatan ke dua kelas Bilingual SMPN1 Jepara :D

Well. Tadi setelah itu kita potong potong kue, sehabis nyanyi "selamat ulang tahun" akhirnya gw ngambil sepotong GEDE (bisa dibilang gede) kue tart yang dia bawa. Emhh pait, wkwkw. Mungkin itu kue tartnya dibikin jadi semacem brownis yang pake serum ato apalah itu yang bikin pait. Well, jadi gw agak gasuka. tapi karena uda terlanjur ngambil, pamali cuy kalo dibuang apalagi kalo dibalikin. wkwkw. akhirnya gw makan itu kue. kue itu gw makan (karena itu makanan) di pojokan kelas. yes, gw emang suka nyendiri. jau dari keramean orang2 gaje itu. wakakak. .dan saat gw lagi sibuk sama kue dan hape gw, eh tiba2 winda, si jail dan usil itu nyolek pipi gw sambil dia tereak anitaaaaaaaaaa dan alhasil gw kaget setengah mampus (well,lebay haha) dan cherry yang warnanya merah beserta tangkenya itu jato ke lantei. dan karena gw kasian dan pamali (lagi2) akhirnya gw ambil itu cherry sambil nunjukin muka winda-awas-ya-lo-gua-bales-lebih-parah hhaha.

samuel. yang paling banyak cemal cemil kuenya si shinta. ckckc.

dan setelah gw sibuk dan agak enek dengan kue itu. gw ambil cream yang ada di kue itu, terus gw colekin ke pipinya shinta, winda, dan billyu! wkwkwk. YES! gw jaheel! gak lupa gw lemotin tu cream ke pipi teman2 gamers gw yang sangat manis (hueeeeeks) iyaitu Bintang, Rizal, Kevin, dan Ian. Yaa emang gamers2 di kelas gw itu cowok2, dan cewenya mungkin cuman gw -,- hua. wkwk. but being different is interesting maan! :p

dan karena acara lempar melempar cream itu, kelas kita bukannya tambah bersih malah tambah ancur banyak cream sana sini belepotan. haha. yaa, akhirnya yang jadi PEMBANTu (ejieeeh) ya gw, dan cs gw dkk (-,-) akhirnya abis ngelap muka gw yang sumpah ga karuan bentuknya, kita ngambil lap pel dan segala bentuknya buat bersihin kelas sebelom guru kelas kita nyemprot kita duluan. wkwk.


para pembantu dadakan. yaaa bolehlah baik dan mbantu2 sekalikali. wkwkw.

Adhika sama Lydia. Malah tengkar waktu kita bersih2 di kelas -,- o mai G!

dann akhirnya setelah emosi sana sini, ini itu anu dan aduh, akhirnya BERSIH JUGA KELAS KITA! wkwkkw.
dan setelah itu kita pulang bersama. buat nyiapin mental mameeen, besok penerimaan rapor! huaa. wish me luck ya dengan nilai yg bagus :D

SUASANA TERAKHIR KELAS, sebelom ditinggal para setan2 nya pulang. WKWKWK

Love ya,
Troublemaker

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fyi disini ga ada fotonya shinta, karena dia itu anaknya bener2 pemalu dan bukan anak yang narsis kaya gw. ahaha (okai, that's not AIB so i said it wkwk) jadi susah banget dapet foto dia. candid sekalipun, dia sadar kamera banget! oo -,-

dan ini foto pertama dan terakir yang muncul di alastua, yang ada Shinta nya. itupun cuman punggungnya. ini waktu kartinian kemaren. omai -,-
jadi silahkan liat punggungnya! wkwkw

worldcup fever

2010-06-18T12:48:00.001+07:00

hey crawlers.
yaaa skg gw mau posting lg. yupyup tetap dalam cerita gak jelas berbobot 10 kg (ampunn-,-) skrg gw mau cerita soal 'kejadian' (ciaelah) maksud gw kegiatan yang terjadi karena peristiwa tersebut digiatkan sehingga menjadi kegiatan yang dapat disebut sebagai dampak dari diselenggarakannya WORLD CUP. Yes!

Nama kegiatan yang digiatkan ini adalah Liga Turnamen Sepak Bola Pelajar 2010. Yess, dari judulnya pun udah ketebak kan kalo ini berhubungan dengan Sepak Bola, Pelajar, Tahun 2010 dan Liga serta Turnamen (trus?-,-). Nah, setelah korek sana sini, bakar atas bawah akhirnya dapet bocoran (air hujan kali ya) kalo kegiatan yang rutin diadain tiap setaon sekali ini bertujuan buat cari bibit-bibit dan plasma nutfah (lo pikir apaan tha?wkwkw) pemain lokal yang kelak diharapin bisa jadi pemain2 handal kaya Lionel Messi, Christian Ronaldo dan Bambang Pamungkas (tentu). Ato minimal kaya Danang Wihatmoko atau Isdiantoro atau Johan Angga Kusuma lah. Haha.


anak2 SPENSA FC waktu ngerayain kemenangannya atas Mant FC. Mereka menari layaknya pemain di Afrika.

Yes, hari Rabu kemaren setelah dua minggu berkutat dalam kesetressan UAS (Ulangan Akhir Sekolah), akhirnya kita bisa nyantai2. Uups. Gak jadi nyantai! Karena tiba2 waktu gw lagi ngegame di kelas(yea!) pak Kepala Sekolah tereak2 di spiker minta buat pada kumpul di lapangan. Dikirannya si ada apel ato apa, eh ternyata, DISURUH KE STADION! uwooo. wkwkkw.

Dan karena sebetulnya gw males, jadi gw turutin itu kata2 pa guru dan bu guru. Secara gw anak baek gitu. Ahahah -,-. Oke, jam 07.45 kita jalan dari sekolah ke Stadion Kamal Junaidi NAEK KAKI. hiahaha yess menyehatkan sekalian menuh2in jalan sehingga jalan2 di jepara berkesan kaya di TOKIO. wkwkw..

Jam 08.10 kita sampe di stadion. Terus jam 08.30 pertandingan dimulai. SPENSA FC (SMPN 1 JEPARA) lawan sama MANT FC ( MTs MANTINGAN FC). Pertandingan berjalan cukup seru. Beberapa kali penyerang SMP1 yang diisi oleh Devid(penyerang utama) berhasil membuat gol pertama pada menit2 awal pertandingan. Dan di menit ke 30, Devid kembali mencetak gol ke 2 kalinya. Dilanjutkan oleh Apip, mencetak gol ke 3. Setelah itu kami istirahat buat pertandingan babak ke II.

Jam 10.00 pertandingan dilanjutkan. Di awal pertandingan Mts Mantingan mulai menyerang untuk membalas gol yang sudah disarangkan di gawang. Sampai akhirnya pada menit ke 69 seorang pemain yang tidak diketahui itu memasukkan bola ke dalam sarang SPENSA FC. well, kita gak putus asa. Pada Menit ke 75 dan 84 kita kembali mencetak gol PEMBALASAN. ciaelah. haha.

dan kedudukan pun menjadi 5-1 untuk Spensa FC - Mant FC. kedudukan bertahan sampai akhir pertandingan. sampai pada pukul 11.00 kurg lebih wasit membunyikan peluit panjang tanda pertandingan diakhiri. dan spensa fc menang telak atas mantingan fc!

sepulangnya, kami sempet berdansa, berderet dan membuat suatu pagar betis di depan stadion di kamal junaidi untuk meluapkan rasa senang kami SECARA damai. haha. yes. andddd its some photos taken by me..

Para pemain Spensa FC waktu pertandingan babak I

Suporter Spensa FC. Cuman sebagian yang kefoto saking banyaknya orangnya. Dan ini cuman kumpulan anak kelas 7 atas (7e,7f,7g)

maen

yeah
segitu REPORTASI saia (ciahaha)
hope you enjoy it!
and dont forget to leave some comments ya!

Luv you,
Troublemakers

ma cute bunny osh

2010-06-17T23:07:00.001+07:00

hey guys
masi dalam rangka isengiseng berboobot 10kg. (wesh-,-).
kali ini gw mau ngepost beberapa poto yang gw ambil tadi pagi.
wkwkw. yesh, ini poto sepuupu gw (well, gw harap dia anak gw :P)
namanya..

ALIF

DAMAR

SAPUTRA :)

yess!
dan sekarang gw yakin. ponakan gw gak kalah jauh kan kyutt nya kaya "ponakan" gw yang ini

wkwkw. itu si kenji. yaa, ponakan (baca:tetangga) gw yang kelewat kyutt sehingga mukanya kaya orang jepang. jadi orang2 persijap (rumah gw dkt ama mes persijap JEPARA jadi typ mereka jum'atan ato nongkrong gw sering ketemu mereka) sering manggil si kenji ini dgn sebutan: SINYO.
wkwkw entahlah.

yes.
they are babies. kyutt (cute) babiees.
semoga mereka bisa jadi penerus bangsa yang ANTI KORUP (sopaste), pinter, baek, rendah hati.
yang baek2 lah pokoknya. huahahah.

cukup sekian gajenya.
saya sedang menunggu untuk menonotn MASIH DUNIA LAIN di TRANS7.
okeoke? wkwkw.

Love ya,
Troublemaker

best-quotes

2010-06-17T19:18:00.002+07:00

ketika pengacara jd katrok

2010-06-17T18:28:00.001+07:00

hello crawlers!
ahaha. yehayeha saya sedang sakit, luar dalame (alhamdulilah :D wkwkw) maka untuk menyembuhkan sakit ini saya akan menulis sesuatu yang dapat ditulis sehingga menjadi sebuah tulisan (oom leon mode on)

well
kita mulai. sebeenernya udah dari jaman kapan ya pengen posting. soal kawinan kaka gw yang gw gak ikut kawin, dan soal ke 'katrok'an gw yang terkagum2 dengan TPI. mean, bukan TPI yang suka nyiarin upin dan ipin itu, tapi ini Tempat Pelelangan Ikan. Iye dah, tempat yang buat ngelelang ikan alias jual beli ikan. Jadi TPI itu kaya pasar ikan tradisional gitu. Para nelayan pada jual ikan langsung (biasanya yang jualin istrinya) abis ditangkep dari laut (biasanya disebut juga sebage kultur nelayan).
well
waktu itu hari minggu. dan karena gak tau harus ngapain dirumah, jadinya gw iseng ikut mami ke pantai bareng ade gw yang paling kecil paling narsis dan paling najong. ahaha. dan waktu itu sebelom ke pantai akhirnya kita mampir dulu ke TPI (karena pantainya deket apa TPI) buat beli jajan. tapi gataunya ternyata disana malah beli ikan dan JAMU! wkwkw (dasar emak2-,-) dan saat gw ikut masuk kesana. yaa suasananya aja udah kaya pasar tradisional2 gitulah. dan ini foto2 iseng berbobot 10kg gw:

ahaha yes
namanya juga orang iseng ya mao gimana lage? wakakakaw.
btw, skrg lg pada demam piala dunia alias worldcup ya? haha. berhubung gw gak suka nonton bola2 internasional jadi gw ga mudeng deh. ya tapi gapapalah seengaknya gw udah tergabung jadi supporter 2tim besar indonesia (amin) yaitu PERSIJA dan PERSIJAP. wkwkw jangan salah baca yee
komenkomenkomen!

p.s
berhubung gw lagi baek hati (wacieh-,-) jadi gw kasi bonus (apaandeh?) hasil iseng2 dan katroknya gw yang laen. wkwkw. ini foto sebenernya cumn kumpulan tissue yang dibentuk gitudeh. entahlah karena jarang ada di kota, mungkin gw yang NGERASA anak kota jadi kagum begitu, wkwkw abis bagus seh-,- oya. ini fotonya gw ambil waktu nikahannya kaka gw. hehe. cekidot :D

fabulos fabulous katroknya gw haha :D

Love ya,
Troublemaker

2010-06-15T15:11:00.001+07:00

Another day without you with me,is like a blade that cuts right through me. But I can wait, I can wait forever -i can wait forever,simple plan

bokeh ♥

2010-06-15T15:06:00.000+07:00

craaawlers yeha i tried (again) to make make some photos with bokeh but yah i think it's freakin' bad -___- i can't shoot perfectly but yah i've tried my best and ofc i loooooove it. check this..

just click for enlarge

yeah actually there's a lot of bokeh-photo but yah you know that the size isn't small right? so the loading was very very unfriendly. but yaah you've got that? what do ya think? very poor skill yaa -___- and and i realized it *winks* but yah i need your comment for my better in future. gimme that!

hungover

2010-06-05T19:10:00.000+07:00

And now the sun is rising
Now the long walk back home (back home)
There's just so many faces,
But no one I need to know (need to know)

In the dark I can't fight it, I fake til I'm numb
But in the bright light,
I taste you on my tongue

Now the party's over
and everybodys gone
I'm left here with myself and I wonder what went wrong
And now my heart is broken
Like the bottles on the floor
Does it really matter?
Or am I just hung over you?
ah ah ah, ah ah ah
Or am I just hungover?

Even my dirty laundry
Everything just smells like you (like you)
And now my head is throbbing
Every song is out of tune
Just like you

In the dark I can't fight til it disapears
But in the daylight
I taste you in my tears

And now the party's over,
and everybodys gone
I'm left here with myself and I wonder what went wrong
And now my heart is broken
Like the bottles on the floor
Does it really matter?
Or am I just hung over you?
ah ah ah, ah ah ah
Or am I just hungover?

Now I've got myself looking like a mess
Standing alone trying to pretend but no,
I put up my fight
But this is it this time (time)
Cus I'm here in the end, tryin to pretend
I'm here in the end, tryin to pretend
oh, ohhh

And now the party's over,
and everybodys gone
I'm left here with myself and I wonder what went wrong
And now my heart is broken
Like the bottles on the floor
Does it really matter?
Or am I just hung over you?
ah ah ah, ah ah ah
Or am I just hungover?

Ah ah ah
Or am I just hungover?

nothing

2010-05-30T20:57:00.001+07:00

"It's nothing..
It just an rainbow in a afternoon parts of my life that remembering me to you..
yeah Its nothing..
Like what you said to me..
It's N.O.T.H.I.N.G"

(my version of) 20 Facts About Girl That Guys Should Know... Or Some Guys Have Already Know.

2010-05-29T18:20:00.000+07:00

So, after Raynard and Dochi put the "90 Guy Facts that Girls Should Know" on their blog, I decided to put what's Girls Facts too. Click the Read More button to continue reading! :)

I googled but because some of them say: "We will always think we are fat, so humor us and tell us we aren't" or "Shave, no matter how cool you think your goatee / beard / mustache looks, we hate it", which is not really true for me, i do love guys with beard. Sometimes.) ....So let's make it MY version of girls facts then -_- Haha, so here it is.

1. GIRLS ALWAYS LOVE FUNNY GUYS (...and you should have know this.)

2. Don't ever lie to us, because we will always know, and it hurts. 

3. Don't compare our boobs with Pamela Anderson's, hers are fake (and you should have know this too)

4. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook. Say it frequently and we're gonna think you're an asshole.

5. Make us curious, in a sweet way.

6.Don't sing us corny love songs. (Some girls might loooove that, but I hate that. Just DON'T ever sing me Secondhand Serenade.)

7. Tell us about your secret make us feel special.

8. Don't hide anything. At least don't be suspicious. Don't make us clueless and guessing about what we're afraid of.

9. Make us laugh. But DON'T make fun of us, even if it's a joke. Some girls are just too sensitive.

10. A system in your car only impresses your homeboys not us.

11. We hate your ex- girlfriends.

12. It is not that cool to shoot snot rockets.

13. Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it is not.

14. Girls love guy who love his family, especially his mom.

15. BE SPONTANEOUS. Any sweet things you do if you do it on purpose I might just think you did that to all other girls.

16. When you're hanging out with some of your pretty girl friends (or worse, your flirty ex girlfriend), you make us feel insecure, and we hate that.

17. If you remember some of the little things about our habits, we really really think you're super sweet.

18. Give us some space. Shower us with attention, not a terror with SMS / phone call everyday.

19. DON'T apologize if you don't really know what's your fault. (I hate this "Apologize if you did something wrong, or even if you didn't" because yea other girls might forgive you, but it wont work if you're with me.)

20. Most importantly: we are always right; so don't forget it.

♥♥♥

Okay, that's my version of girl facts. Haha. Yea, girls sucks. But we ARE always right. :p

quotes

2010-05-25T18:41:00.000+07:00

there's never a reason to do something unless it's going to be memorable, unless it's going to change things, unless it's going to inspire a movement. with the song and with the performance, I hope to say something very grave about fame and the price of it.

- Lady Gaga